Caskey - Lose Myself lyrics

I ain't trying to lose myself
To this famous shit i be on one
Thinking 'bout how I really need
To change my shit
Look around, everything so shallow
Waking up every day is a battle
Make anybody wanna throw the towel

Yeah, not me, looking in the mirror, I see
The man right in front of me say, "I got I T"
They trying to stop the wave, I'm riding
Tell 'em "godspeed" you know the time
You know that all that talk and
Shit made me work overtime
They wait for it to happen, me
I had to go get mine
I swear my work ethic insane and I overgrind
So when they hating on my accolades
I never mind
People talk shit 'cause it's way too easy
It's much harder to apply yourself
And try to beat me
Yeah, so I never ever base
My happiness on the comments
I'm just working on myself
Going harder like I promised
When your fuse getting low
When you're smoking so much and
You escape with the dro
When you're spending every night inside
A different liquor sto'
When you're driving on the highway drunk
And you know
That you know better, that you know, yeah
That you know better, yeah, that you know
That you can't escape the places in
Your mind that you go

I ain't trying to lose myself
To this famous shit i be on one
Thinking 'bout how I really need
To change my shit
Seem like all these people so shallow
Every day, waking up is a battle
Make anybody wanna throw the towel

People talk about my life who don't know me
I'ma ball on 'em
Leave my legacy and dip like Kobe (swish)
If you're tryna hold me down
Then don't say it, gotta show me
When you starting to get success
Everything gets lonely
Yeah, can you relate? Not another
Second I could waste some people misinform
Thinking that it's only fate
It's more about the way you cooking
Than what's on the plate
In my momma crib on the day I lost my pops
Now every day I live
Trying to get the bigger knots
Sometime I be just wondering if
Shit is really worth it
Most people I know crumbling
Right underneath the surface
Still give my blood, sweat and tears
I was broke for some years
I was caught up on them Percs
I done buried some my peers
I done spent a lot of nights
In a room with my fears
I been caught up in depression
I was blaming my career
But I know better, yeah, I know better, yeah
But you know
That you can't escape the places in
Your mind that you go

And I ain't trying to lose
Myself to this famous shit
I be fucked up, shorty
Thinkin' how I really need to change my shit
Oh, look around everything so shallow
Waking up everyday is a battle
Sometimes feel like throwing in the towel
But you know you know better
Yeah, you know you know better, yeah
You know that you know you know better
Yeah, you know you know better, yeah
You know
Sometimes feel like throwing in the towel
Sometimes feel like all of ya'll shallow
Sometimes feel like my heart hollow

I've often said that I
Wish people could realize
All their dreams and wealth and fame
So they could see that it's not where
You're gonna find your sense of completion

Uh, my accolades are spinning 'round me
The day my father passed away
The day that music found me
It's crazy how my darkest times the
Ones that have allowed me
To free my heart and soul and clear
The chains that really bound me
I use it as a lesson
That everything is for reason
Though that reason ain't always clear
I'm searching for meanings in my quiet time
Conscious hours, focused on breathin'
I just sold a 'script of
Oxycontin to someone demons
I think I'm crazy
Think I'm spending time in the clubs
And they need to play me
Think I'm fucking up on the scenes
That I need to vacate
Wait, there I go with that swag flow again
The same shit that made some fans call me
Sell-out 'cause shit ain't dope to them
Don't think they understand artistry
Is 'bout openin'
Your mind to different waves of
Experiments and I'm soakin' in
All things subject to change
Just don't talk about me like my
Life purpose was in vain
Like I don't apply the pressure to
These hoes in the game
My creativity at higher levels
Than what I claim know the path to greatness
Is through humility
Will it be my intelligent ways
Verses strength and agility
They'll fuck the world and let
'em die verse vulnerability
Know that God put me here because
I got the will in me
No, my purpose here is more than just music
It's 'bout self improvement
This year I'm blowing up
And having major influence in this
Shallow fucking rap game

My soul is not contained
Within limit's of my body
My body is contained within the
Limitlessness of my soul one unified field
One unified field of nothing
Dancing for no particular reason