Caskey - These Days lyrics

Said a prayer 'cause I need one thing
Lookin' up at God, please relieve some pain
I ain't changed, man, but things done changed
Life keep endin' up with me in the rain
Guess I wasn't meant to be unphased
Asked for a miracle, don't think one came
Shed a tear for all the time I've seen pain
These days, gotta try to seem sane
These days, gotta try to seem sane

Tryin' to get a grip, tight grip on the knots
But sometimes
I can't even get a grip on my thoughts
Rather be inside that box Chevy than in a box
Rather be inside my girl's
Box than under locks
Toast up for them bad habit's that I adopt
I turned savage, man, the world savage
How could I not?
Memories when I see the house
I don't try to pass it a lot
Cried when it was the bottom
Hope I laugh at the top
Look I, died so many times, on the inside
It'd make your skin rise
A couple friends died
From fentanyl inside a pill
That was pin sized
I got some family members doin'
That shit ten times
Things I go through, that I ain't 'posed to
You learn the game the hard way
No one coach you
When up close and far away, no one notice you
You supposed to lose
I just want to know what freedom
Feel like at the mall
When you ain't gotta scrape a dollar
You can purchase it all
When your father built you up
Every time that you fall
You ain't have to build yourself back
Up from them pieces of wall
I tried to jog the stadium, fog the cranium
And nothin' worked, my heart in titanium
I got the radiation without the radium
There's so much pain where I'm from

Said a prayer 'cause I need one thing
Lookin' up at God, please relieve some pain
I ain't changed, man, but things done changed
Life keep endin' up with me in the rain
Guess I wasn't meant to be unphased
Asked for a miracle, don't think one came
Shed a tear for all the time I've seen pain
These days, gotta try to seem sane

Despite the evidence
That I would never live to see the presidents
I've been goin' up on my relevance
And everybody wanna be my nemesis
The presidential suite is the residence
Woulda thought that there was an inheritance
Only thing my pops left me was disappearances
That shit was embarrassin'
The jet takin' off when there's clearances
Make enough for all the moments
That I wasn't cherishin'
Pain, it's like a devil without a name
A bezel without a chain
A rebel without a lane
I never settle where I refrain
I elevate and I change
I wasn't tryna remain, stains on me
Police pulled me over, had that thing on me
I told people not to judge me
If you ain't know me
So many people switched on me, I'm the same
Homie you changed on me, I'm the same, homie
That money came through and you hatin' on me
You changed on me, I'm the same, homie
Some things I wouldn't do to the gang, homie
I'm amazed, not afraid
The devil sendin' shots, I've been ungrazed
My girl talkin' to me
Said "you seem unfazed"
I can't explain it, man, I seen some things

Said a prayer 'cause I need one thing
Lookin' up at God, please relieve some pain
I ain't changed, man, but things done changed
Life keep endin' up with me in the rain
Guess I wasn't meant to be unphased
Asked for a miracle, don't think one came
Shed a tear for all the time I've seen pain
These days, gotta try to seem sane
These days, gotta try to seem sane

Shed a tear for all the time I've seen pain
These days, gotta try to seem sane