Ces Cru - Perfect Essence lyrics

Before my life took the direction it has
I use to run around in the
Backyard playin' catch with my dad
Hoppin' the fence to play
With neighborhood kids
It seemed like every day was good
Doing stupid shit but never behavin'
The way we should
A raised Christian influenced as a
Youth by the crucifix
Switched to public education but never did
Really get used to it
In childhood foolishness
Went from gifted and talented and honor roll
To shop liftin' at Conoco
Sneaking in Grouper 6 nemesis on Nintendo
Posted up in the Electronics
Department at Target
All day playin' Genesis demos starvin'
Shined in the darkness with Kevin
And raisin' funds
In the parking lot of the supermarket
Bummin' change for Laser One
Runnin' game on Asians
I'd spend hours takin' tokens
Findin' ways to aggravate 'em
Beat 'em till the game was broken
With Jason, stealin' for me was too easy
We use to jack toys, go home, open 'em up
Bumpin' Whodini and the Fat Boys
Mom strove a trooper
Had a crush on Punky Brewster
For years I wondered if Fred
Savage fucked with Winnie Cooper
I was just a skinny loser
A prepubescent virgin
Uncertain and full of question eyes
That never seen deception yes

It happened after birth so let's
Get past the first impression
I moved to an urban setting now
I'm usin' words for weapons
Once passive now turned aggressive
I guess it's the Ces that changed me
Rap with the perfect essence
Expressing most everthing that's
Happened since after birth so let's
Get past the first impression
I moved to an urban setting now
I'm usin' words for weapons
Once passive now turned aggressive
I guess it's the Ces that changed me
Rap with the perfect essence expressing
What makes me angry

Yeah this is that character that I
Have been waitin' to build
That has nothing at all to do
With how I'm statin' my skill
(nothing at all)
Cuz I'll stay screamin' at you cats till
I turn gray in the gills
I seen you swervin'
Goin' off the road so straighten the wheel
And while you try to get there first
You know the race isn't real
They say when there's a bill there's a way
So why you're wastin' your will?
I love my memories of my mom and
Pop but I'm erasing 'em still
Took a few shots and I chased 'em with pills
Cuz of this spot that I grew up's
The only place that I feel
(only place that I feel)
I love smashin' out on my bike
But always hated the hills
Who, me, makin' a killing?
I have yet to make one shilling
While some look over my shoulder just
For the sake of stealin'
Aware or not they read your brain
I swear to god you'd be amazed
Cuz villains these days'll find a
Way to rape the women
How many were crushed in rubble
Just couldn't escape the buildin' in war
There is no winner consider
The fate of children (Remember that)
Powerless as we're housin' terrorists
Within our borders
Men in camouflage and automatic
Weapons on every corner
Bombin' the block outside got you
Thinkin' this can't be real
(This can't be real)
Now you feelin' the way the
Kids in Afghanistan feel

Yeah I've grown accustomed what can I say
I know it sucks (yeah, it sucks)
But, it's so close to hell I can
Almost feel the gates opening up
How's that for some motivation?
After we vote to change it
And it's legal the people will see the
Last of their sober days then
We stay oppressed and
I'll actually know we're safe when
We raise our voices against the
Contracts of this covert nation
We're faded into black (fading into black)
And I'm making my own arrangements
Look past your speculation
'cause these acts of devastation
Won't bring back a better nation
Keep an eye out for the crack down
Try not to act out
'cause they'll find your sack on the pat down
Crowds nowadays too tough to entertain
I don't know why I rap
You can watch the world by day, by day
On C-span and Simulcast
I get depressed and run away
And numb the pain and shit's suppressed
Like memories and younger days
That hit's the chest like love and hate
It's give or take but what a way
To live a life when men are mice
Some picking Ces you pick a side
Whoever pays the better price

Come back to Earth so let's
Get past the first impression
I moved to an urban setting now
I'm usin' words for weapons
Once passive now turned aggressive
I guess it's the Ces that changed me
Rap with the perfect essence
Expressing most everthing that's
Happened since after birth so let's
Get past the first impression
I moved to an urban setting now
I'm usin' words for weapons
Once passive now turned aggressive
I guess it's the Ces that changed me
Rap with the perfect essence expressing
What makes me angry