Chelsea Cutler - If I Hadn't Met You lyrics

If I hadn't met you would I be all alone?
Hiding in my bedroom
Living life through a phone
I'm scared of everything and everyone
Everything I haven't done yet
My head is in it's own

I was a dreamer, but I hit my ceiling
I lie awake stone-cold most evenings
Hit the bleachers instead of playing
'Cause, I gave up when it got frustrating
Then you find someone in your bed
Who doesn't hate the things that
Go on in your head
And out of everybody else that I met
It's you

You, if I didn't have you, I don't
Think I'd even leave my home
Wouldn't have no place to go, go
You, if I didn't have you, I don't
Think I'd be the same, I won't
Ever let you, let you go, go

If I hadn't met you
Would I lie through my teeth?
Hiding all the rest, you
Got the best part of me
I'm scared of letting anybody get
Close enough to have regrets
I get if you wanna go

I was a dreamer but I hit my ceiling
I lie awake stone-cold most evenings
Hit the bleachers instead of playing
'Cause, I gave up when it got frustrating
Then you find someone in your bed
Who doesn't hate the things that
Go on in your head
And out of everybody else that
I met, it's you, ooh

You, if I didn't have you, I don't
Think I'd even leave my home
Wouldn't have no place to go, go
You, if I didn't have you, I don't
Think I'd be the same, I won't
Ever let you, let you go, go

My bed is so tired of me
All the demons in my head are lying to me
There's a war between myself and
Who I'm tryna be
Now I don't know how to function in society
One, two, three medications
Just so I can have
A fuckin' normal conversation
I sleep better when I've been sedated
I'm scared of everybody else and I hate it
(And I hate it)

You, if I didn't have you, I don't (I don't)
Think I'd even leave my home (My home)
Wouldn't have no place to go, go
You, if I didn't have you, I don't (I don't)
Think I'd be the same, I won't (I won't)
Ever let you, let you go, go