Conditions - Missing hours lyrics

I've started now to wonder where I've been
Running dry on confidence again
So I turn to comfort I've found in
A chemical
Everything around me starts to change
I can feel my conscience rearrange
The person everyone needs me to be ephemeral

And I don't really want to
Feel like this again
Feeling like it's all my fault
The paradox is warring in my skin
And I can't let it go

All or nothing all or nothing I've been told
You can't be something
You can't be something you don't know

I've been told that I don't care enough
Honestly I really don't give a fuck
Yet I do my best to suck it up and move along
I drink a little golden therapy
Sing another broken melody
The person everyone needs me to
Be I don't belong

And I don't really want to
Feel like this again
Feeling like it's all my fault
The paradox is warring in my skin
And I can't let it go

All or nothing all or nothing I've been told
You can't be something
You can't be something you don't know
Well I can, and I did, now you know

All or nothing all or nothing I've been told
You can't be something
You can't be something you don't know
All or nothing all or nothing I've been told
You can't be something
You can't be something you don't know
Well I can, and I did
Well I can, and I did, now you know