Convolk - ​Сrumbling / suicide note lyrics

I wish that I could find another way
But I am not alive, already dead
So long before I

I wish you knew how I feel
About you, about you
Don't think it's sad to, sad to
Suffer I'm glad to, glad to
I'm crumbling down
I am still stuck in this town
Life of a letdown, letdown
Jumping to get down, get down

And I need some help
Ask for it? No chance in hell
Laugh at it, after we fell
But I can't get up again
Do some more to sober up
Five-cards wants to blow me up
Falling is the best of fun
The last look at this gun

Every room in my house is a fucking mess
I wanna paint the wall with a shotgun blast
Maybe that's what it takes to
Wake up my friends
Hope you know what you were missing then
I wanna write a note that
Makes my friends cry
Write a note that makes my friends cry
Really makes me wanna take my life
Take my life

"Hey, umm it's me and I don't
Really know how to say this
But i don't think umm i'm gonna be
Coming home tonight and I just
Wanted to let you know it's not
Your fault and I love
You a lot uhh you know I've
Been thinking about it this for
A while and I settled on it
Y'know so I love you"

If it's truthfully all tonight, tonight
Tonight
If it's truthfully all tonight, tonight
Tonight
Truthfully all tonight, tonight, tonight
(It's so painful)
, tonight, tonight, tonight
If it's truthfully all tonight, tonight
Tonight
If it's truthfully all tonight, tonight
Tonight (It's so painful)
If it's truthfully all tonight, tonight
Tonight tonight, tonight, tonight