Cosmo Jarvis - Is The World Strange? lyrics

Is the world strange, or am I strange?
Is the world strange, or am I?
Is the world mean, or am I mean?
Guess I won't know 'til I die

Everyone I know
I don't wanna see you anymore
I don't even know what I know you for
All I know is that you made me feel abnormal
And mostly always, all day
As kids when we played
I still felt like I had to
Try to be okay with you
And truly, I wanted you to like me
Not spite me without explanation unrightly
But even as a kid, my heart's what I hid
'Cause something about it and
This planet don't fit

I could never build relationships
The way you did so you were only friends


With what I pretended
Every day, every minute
And now I'm stuck so far in it
This game will mean death for me
If I don't win it

I'm a coward, a deserter
An anonymous flirter i had me a woman
But my bullshit just hurt her
Very much the same, when I was at school
Felt like I was from a junk gene pool

Created to be confused
Should never have to choose
Between what I am
And what the world understands
But, if I never did, I would be more isolated
But sure I'd be hated
So it's way better if I fake it

Fake me, fake these words
I'm sick of polishing this turd
For this proud little planet
That can't understand it but really
It's clearly my fucked mind that's had it

I tried, don't know why
But myself was no help
People saw shit inside me it's
Clear that they felt
It wasn't their job to comprehend
So I began learning them
To spare them the expense
I began my descent to the future

Time here's not like when you're 8
It's real
Like mistakes I just realized I made
Like thinking people are worth
Having to suffer painting over yourself in
Their favourite colour

Or maybe I'm just a clock with no real face
Who tried to tick-tock but could
Not find a pace

Is the world dead, or am I dead?
Is the world dead, or am I?
Is the world fucked, or am I fucked?
Guess I won't know 'til I die

And I wished you would be harsh to me
And explain to my face every
Fault you could see
Instead you were silent, yes, you let me be
To continue the search for what
Mask you could treat

Like a motherfucking normal human being
Other kids in your club didn't
Have masks to bring
They didn't act different
And that was sufficient
For them to receive all your
Trust that I didn't

That's why I can't care now about you lot
'Cause from the beginning you
Never said 'get lost'
You never said 'Fuck off, cuz
Take that brave mask off
We as a world have decided you're just not

What we're looking for in
A long time acquaintance
We don't like hearing
Your emotionless statements'
And your 'I can't play ball
With the world' conversations
Kill yourself now
So in the future we're free from
Your songs about fucked up personality"

I always prayed that you would
Punch me in the face
And shout 'You are a waste of space, get out
My family say you can't come 'round'
Wanted everyone more than they ever wanted me
I worked for them, worked for their company

'Cause it wasn't really me they befriended
Extended friendly courtesy
It was whatever mask that I wore
That applied to their sort
That applied to them so much
They'd answer the door
When I knocked after school
With my trusty skateboard

And I'm paying for it now
I'm a rain filled cloud
That can't drop the huge storm it allowed
To build up inside it, no, not a single drip
I can never get rid of what makes me a dick

I'd say sorry, but it's not my fault I exist
So just kiss my ass, people
I'm glad you won't miss me when I'm gone
I don't want to be in your history

It's just best to forget me
Even if you liked me you still never met me