Counterparts - Witness lyrics

Expose me for all that I am
The man behind the masquerade
I am my own false witness

Fact resides solely in the depths of my mind
And will I ever really let
It come to surface?
You only see what I want you to see
And you believe all that you're told

Serenity is a beautiful hoax, a liar
I have the whole world
Convinced of my contentment no truth in this
I've lost count of all the times
I've made it home alive and wished I hadn't
Expose me for all that I am
The man behind the masquerade
I am my own false witness
I'm left to conquer the mountains in my mind
And I am my maker

Life is what's killing me
I hate the fact that I'm just fine
Forever seeking anything to
Take responsibility
Life is what's killing me
I hate the fact that I'm alive
Forever searching for my scapegoat because
I refuse to face reality

At least I can say I tried to cherish
Every single day when I woke up
And didn't want to die
I'd work my hands to the bone
Trying to stay suspended in
Those specific seconds but, I know I'm just
Counting down the minutes
Until I'm miserable again