CRUCIFIX - Slave 4 Life lyrics

I was born in the city, it wasn't pretty dawg
My life fallin' through the crack
That I'm smokin' on
Rationalizing everything that I
Knew was wrong
Sippin' sin 'til it baptized me
Wrapping myself in these chains
And I'll be gone in a minute

Sin called i heard
Compromised my heart for a pile of dirt
One wrong, turned right
A second later I can't even
Tell wrong from right top speed, downhill
A little anger turns quick into
The thought to kill
A couple blunts, a couple pills
A couple lines, just to cover up how I feel
I'm wrong and I know it
But I can't even care no more
I'm just tryin' not to show it
Wonderin' what I'm livin' for?
Stuck in between my faith and my demons
And I'm kickin' and screamin' just lookin'
For meaning in life
Too proud to believe in a God I ain't seein'
Still I want it even though I'm

A slave tonight, free in regard to right
Thinkin' I'm lovin' every minute
A slave for life
And I can't even see the light
But I'll be gone any minute

Forget the God-thing
If anything's raining down on me from heaven
It's a lot of pain but in the end
I'll be wonderin' what it was I gained
From fillin' my life with the things
Of which I'm now ashamed
What if in the end I find I'm wrong
And I ain't got nothin' left?
When everything I loved is dead and gone
And the paycheck to my sin is death?
God you see what I've been through
And all this life that I've ruined
Where all these things that I
Don't want to do is what I find myself doin'
But I'm free! And I love it!
I've seen God and I want some more of it!
I'm still a slave just a different master
But I've never worn chains that felt so free!

A slave tonight, free in regard to right
Thinkin' I'm lovin' every minute
A slave for life
And I can't even see the light
But I'll be gone any minute