Crypt - Bad Friend lyrics

2: 30 in the morning and I
Get a text from my friend
She said, "I need you right now"
And I already knew what that meant
See, me and this girl, we think alike
Too many phone calls spent
For me to know she's thinking 'bout her
Life and how it's gon' end
See, on the outside, we're happy
And we show it to the world
And we put on this fake exterior
So the truth won't unfurl
But I know who she is
'cause it's like looking in a mirror
All these smiles are cries for help
And it couldn't be any clearer
So I pick up the phone and call
Her as she answers through her cries
She's hyperventilating
Telling me that she wants to die
My heart starts to race and
My thoughts begin to blur
We're nine hours apart
But I'm seconds from losing her
I tried to calm her down and tell
Her what she means to me
Even though we're new friends
She's seen a side that no one sees
Told her, "Listen to my
Breaths, I'm right here, please breathe
You've got so much left to do, stay here
Don't leave" the cries got even louder as
The breaths got short
I told her, "Listen to my words"
As I fell down to the floor
"Stay with me, I'm here, let it out
It's okay" just cry till you can't cry no
More tears down your face
A couple minutes went by and
The crying finally stopped
But not because she did
Because the phone call dropped
I called her back quick
Just hoping I'd hear "hello"
But I just kept getting met with
The sounds of those dial tones
I froze what do you do in that moment?
Do you call the police or do
You hope that she's over it?
Get a hold of her parents
And tell 'em the situation?
Just so they can pull her from
College and end her aspirations?
Leave it alone and hope it
Was just an escapade?
Pray for a text from her in
The morning saying that she's okay?
Call anyone you know just to
Make sure that she's alive?
Ignore it completely and pray to
God that she survived?
I let it go she must've wanted to be alone
I guess that this was just
Another one of her episodes
She never told no one about
This depression she dealt with
And who was I to air out
Her secrets? That would be selfish
So I laid down in my bed and I rested my head
Closed my eyes and drifted
Peacefully to sleep, then I dreamt
That I would see her tomorrow and
I would speak to her then
Till I was woken to several several missed
Calls and texts that she's dead
My heart broke she downed a bottle of pills
She took 'em shortly after our call ended
And it felt surreal
She was a friend of many
A student athlete at our school
A daughter, a sister, a very special jewel
At the funeral
They told us that nobody had a clue
That they could've saved her life
If only that they knew
And if someone at the funeral
Had ever felt depressed
To get some help so that your face
Won't ever end up in the press
There wasn't a dry face in the
Room only twenty-two years old
An entire life in front of her
And now she's laying there cold
If only I'd called someone
We wouldn't be here now
And nobody would be sad
I wouldn't feel like I let her down
But that's not what happened
'cause instead of going to bed
I called every person I knew to check
To make sure you weren't dead
I stayed up seven hours
Praying every second of it
Just hoping to get a text
Saying that you weren't heaven-sent
But then I got it you told
Me that I had no right
And blocked me on everything
And we ain't talk since that night
Was I a bad friend? Options, I had none
I guess I'd rather be a bad
Friend than a sad one