EKKSTACY, Dark1saac - Just Keep Trying lyrics

She has starry eyes
Something that I like but I'm terrified
I can't see inside

My chest is in my pain
And my head fuckin’ hurts
I feel my heart break and I’m always alert
My tears are like rain washin’ up in the dirt
And causing new stains all on my shirt
I’m so exhausted and I’m countin’ the seconds
I feel so damn nauseous and
I’ve learned no lessons
I gotta stop trustin’ and fallin’ on weapons
Cuz I keep on cuttin’ and I can see heaven
God let me die so I can be at peace
I will not lie, I’m begging you, please
Don’t wanna be alive and no one else wants me
So why do I try when I could be free
I got nothing left and I’ve
Already sold my soul
Cannot take breaths and I’m here on my own
Try to use my head and make
A path to get home but when I look ahead for
Home there’s nowhere to go

She met me in the summer
She walked the streets with a
Bag on her shoulder
Girl fuck when we’re older let’s do it now
Now

Just laugh at me, act like I care
Look inside me and see nothing’s there
I’m just a freak and the
Spirit's they point and stare
No matter how much I bleed
This feels so unfair
All my mistakes and regrets are
Still on my mind all the pain in my chest
Just builds up inside
And I hate myself for not feeling fine
Because I get more chances and
Fuck up each time
Everyday I try so hard to grow up
But I’m starting to feel like
I just need more luck
Because all my attempts just fuckin’ erupt
I wanna quit but maybe the pain’s fun
Maybe I deserve this and I simply can’t leave
This is what I get for being me
I’m stuck with myself and I
Can’t leave my body
Dealing with agony is just my hobby