Dave - Survivor's Guilt lyrics

Fall too far to be wise and I
Know that I try but I
Fall too far to be wise and I
Know that I try but I
Fall too far to be wise and I
Know that I try but I
Fall too far to be wise and I
Know that I try but I

Look, let me show you behind the scene
Behind the glitz and the glamour and
All the lights you see
Behind the rumours on the life I lead
Let me talk to the people like
It's the mic in me
The truth is I got really bad anxiety
I'm on the motorway
Cryin' in the driver's seat
I don't even know where I'm goin'
I got love, but I don't know how to show it
Is this life? When you feel like givin' up
Know you're close
I been sayin' the least and knowin' the most
I've had ups and downs
But the highest of the highs
Never last for as long as the lowest of lows
Survivor's guilt
I feel the worst at my happiest
'Cause I miss all my niggas that couldn't
Be in this life I built
But that's the type of shit
That only I can feel gettin' me in the mood
My ex has got ivory skin
Which is funny 'cause it's really
The elephant in the room
Is that enough reason to bury me in a tomb?
I fell in love with an Albanian
I know it's mad we're not together
'cause her family would hold us back
I saw the red flags
I wouldn't want my child to grow in that
Rum and Red Bull, it's a culture clash
(Fuckin' hell)
I don't wanna let life tear us apart
I see the Internet gossip and
It wears on my heart
I fuck with her, she was there from the start
I'm seein' them laugh at me
Cah I'm vulnerable ain't that the shit that
Rappers' supposed to do?
I'd rather rap about arguin' with my
Girl than fuckin' your girl
But I don't mind, because the both are true
Ignorin' my messages
These times I know she on her
Worst part is I wouldn't even do the same
Hate it or love it
You gotta charge it to the game
(Gotta charge it to the) heavy is the head
But don't play with my heart
I feel like a footballer when
I'm makin' my art through ball
How I'm managin' the weight of the past
I felt so much pain that I got favorite scars
And my house got wings like my favorite cars
And the milly rock my favorite dance
You can call it what you want it
But I got it off of takin' a chance
I didn't take an advance
Fame comes with a price
You can't pay in advance
For six long years, I've been playin' my part
Like a freak in a circus
When they're makin' them dance
I got nights where it's light and
I got days where it's dark
And the waters that I swim in
It ain't safe for the sharks he a gangster
But the stress gonna take him apart
I'm with the niggas that I
Claimed from the start
I see you niggas changin'
They didn't make it
It's a shame it takes fallin' to your death
For a person to appreciate fully
The gravity of the situation
But that's just irony at it's finest
Black women, I just wanna say I'm sorry
I done a lot of dumb shit, I won't lie to you
I wanna be a voice for you
Be a light for you
I know I haven't done enough
I wanna try for you
Wanna be on the frontline for you
Campaign for you, make change for you
I just wanna help in any way
Bein' genuine, I think about it every day
Tour life, travellin' every day
Nerves paralysing when you get to stage
You feel love for an hour
And then it gets to fade
Imagine what that does to your mental state
Imagine bein' a millionaire at a tender age
You don't even know whether to spend or save
My mum had to grow up fast
She expects the same
I was twenty with a mortgage and rent to pay
So what's happenin'? I got
Guerillas all around me, allow me
Don't get grabbed in a party or lack in it
You'll die for a whine like Joffrey Baratheon
Pattern 'em
The government ain't gonna help with all
The issues that I'm tacklin'
The way you talk about politics is bafflin'
I wouldn't even trust my own
Shadow in a cabinet
Cabbin’ it, can't drive no more
I been lookin' for the answers
Sure that I'll find 'em
I don't judge an accent but
The story behind it
We all know loss, but there's glory behind it
I'ma make a film for my mum and tell her
"Tell to the world this album
Is just the soundtrack"
Look at her story in a year in her life
And tell me if it doesn't bring
A fuckin' tear to your eyes in this together

I thought wishin' wouldn't hurt
But take it over
I’m done holdin’ at your lies
So knowin' that it weren’t for any one thing
You know you love fast and I
Know you want to stay
In the clouds, my head’s sippin' up
Let the other try, said I don’t wanna try
I thought wishin' wouldn't hurt
But take it over
I’m done holdin’ at your lies
So knowin' that it weren’t for any one thing
You know you love fast and I
Know you want to stay
In the clouds, my head’s sippin' up
Let the other try, I don’t wanna try

What I've realised
What I realised 'bout who I am
Is that, you're kinda taught
You're taught to die for what you stand for
You feel me? But I realise I'm here to live
For what I stand for
'Cause I wanna see it, bro, I wanna enjoy it
Bro i wanna see what I feel, like I am
You know what I'm sayin'?
Out there, while I'm here, and that's that
Bro but yeah, link up soon my guy
You know how it is
Hustle o’clock, bruv, shine on 'em