Dax - Depression lyrics

I can't find myself, mm
I get lost inside my brain
I think I might need help, mm
But I pushed all of 'em away
I took the cards they dealt
And there's nothin' I can change
So when I'm by myself
I just pray for brighter days

Sometimes I sit and I reminisce
'bout the good times
Wish I could get those back
I keep on runnin' these races
That go in my mind
Then they go on these tracks
I'm not ready to erase all my memories, mm
I fight depression and I let it
Get the best of me
Now thеre's nowhere to run, nowhеre to go
Look around
It's liquor bottles all on the floor
Fillin' up the space inside my
Heart and my home
Drownin' out these thoughts until
They leave me alone

I can't find myself, mm
I get lost inside my brain
I think I might need help, mm
But I pushed all of 'em away
I took the cards they dealt
And there's nothin' I can change
So when I'm by myself
I just pray for brighter days

These thoughts are drainin' all my energy, mm
I try to tell 'em to God
They said I'm goin' insane
And then they recommended therapy, mm
And to go and talk to a
Man who's gettin' paid to explain
He started sayin' that the chemical imbalance
Is the reason that my brain
Ain't connectin' to
Accomplishments associated with movin' on
In life and past the things
That my heart cannot contain
So the happiness won't sustain
Then he read me my options, mm
He said "Here goes a pill, only take two
Wit' a meal" and it'll numb how I feel
(Numb how I feel, numb how I feel)

I can't find myself, mm (Can't find myself)
I get lost inside my brain
I think I might need help, mm
(Think I might need help)
But I pushed all of 'em away
I took the cards they dealt
(Took the cards they dealt)
And there's nothin' I can change
So when I'm by myself (When I'm by myself)
I just pray for brighter days

Should I drown all these thoughts
Or should I leave 'em to float?
I got all of my flaws
Livin' inside of this boat
I've been anchored in pain
The weight is makin' me choke
It's gettin' harder to breathe
It's pullin' right at my throat
I've been hopin' for change
But don't know how to restart
They say you ain't a man
When you exposin' your heart
Then they say you insane until
It tears you apart
And then it cuts you so deep and
They can tell by the scars
We can only see change when
We accept who we are
Try to run from the shame and
You will never get far
Don't you bottle the pain or live
Your life in the dark
You're meant to break from those chains and
Shine as bright as a star
Don't you ever tell yourself
That your depression
Is the reason you won't make it or
That happiness is not in your cards
With our God, you can beat all the odds
Keep your faith and you'll never
Be lost and say

I can't find myself, mm
I get lost inside my brain
I think I might need help, mm
(I think I might need help)
But I pushed all of 'em away
(I pushed all of them away)
I took the cards they dealt
And there's nothin' I can change
So when I'm by myself
I just pray for brighter days