Derez De’Shon - Mental lyrics

Southside on the track, yeah

Thoughts in my mental
I can't even think straight
Without popping prescription
Mixing it with liquor (Huh)
Tryna find a way to make life so simple
It get harder everyday
I swear life's so difficult
I gotta keep a pistol
Can't trust too many niggas
I been hurt too many times
And I done loved too many bitches
I made it through the struggle
Swear to God as my witness
It was hard, but I did it
Thanking God every second
Every minute I repent it, Lord forgive me
I was sinning
I was tripping, I was tryna find
A way to hide my feelings, yeah
I was tryna find a way to handle business
Yeah i was tryna find a place
To raise my children, yеah
I ain't have nowhere to stay
I swеar, I didn't, yeah
Just got a text from my lil' partner
Say he just got robbed
No disrespect, I swear, I love you
But that ain't my problem
Go through so much, I got my own
And you can't help me solve 'em
When you was up, didn't put me on
I just kept taking losses
Gonna lose myself in my own mind
'cause I keep seeing demons
Scared to fall asleep or close my eyes
Terrified I might stop breathing
If I overdosed and died right now
They wouldn't know 'til they tweet it
Nobody checks if I'm alive
Only call when they need me
Thinkin' to myself like how
It would've been
If I would've never lost my
Cousin or my closest friend
All these niggas actin' like they love me
But they just pretend
Tryna find my way up out that place
It's like I'm stuck again
I've been on drugs again
Tryna drown my problems and my pain
With this cup of Henn'
Bitch knew I was fucked up from
The way a nigga stumbled in
Residue all on my face, I'm fucking up again
I lost my heart, walked away
I'm losing love again
And I've been going through some
Things I just can't understand
Said I've been going through some
Things I just don't understand
Losing friends, tryna find myself again
Staring in the mirror, don't know who I am
I ain't seen my children in a minute, damn
What the fuck got into me?
Nigga talkin' 'bout killin' me
Keep guns for my enemies
Bitch say she ain't feelin' me
I'm a good nigga with bad energy
She wanna fuck, I wanna go to sleep
God, I see the devil in my dreams
But nobody understand when I said it
Gotta see a doctor
Tryna see where my head is (Lord)
Gotta see a doctor 'cause I
Need some more medicine, yeah
Try to get so high that
I can't feel nothin'
Try to get so high that my body get numb
Tryna get so high that I can't feel love
Swear I get so high, they can't wake me up
(They can't wake me up, they
Can't wake me up, they can't wake me up)
Swear I get so high, they can't wake me up
(They can't wake me up, they
Can't wake me up, they can't wake me up)