Diabolic - Collide lyrics

This is for everybody out there
Whoever fucked up their life
Or had someone close do it for 'em

My 3-year-old son says he wants
To go to mommy's it's heartbreaking
She's been doing dope and roxies
I know it's too much for him to understand
That she let drugs get the upper hand
Fucking up his plans
I know he loves her but I don't trust her
Enough to leave him alone in a
Home with his own mother oh brother
It's bad enough my child support is turning
Into powder on the counter
She's about to snort
Now I'm out in court fighting over custody
Luckily, the judge can see it's all
About my son for me
Well luckily, they agreed
Handed me the orders
Same court I dropped 12 G's
In to see my daughter

A lot's happened since she moved away in '05
Her spiteful ass mom
Homie believes her own lies
Her jealous husband calls my cell
Like I'ma tell my cousins
Out in Yonkers cuz where you
Live got me really buggin'
Detect the sarcasm
I don't even bark at 'em but if I think
About the situation then my heart spasms
My daughter probably thinks
Her father doesn't
Care, 'cuz I wasn't there
And it seems like her brother's
Taking up her share
Plus I'm here with this good girl
She's so great
She lies to me saying, "Baby it'll be okay!"
There's no way it's okay I spent the
Whole day stressin' 'cuz my son's sick
And I can't afford to co pay

This is how my thoughts move and collide to
Live with the shit I do to survive
Moving through all the rumors and lies
I'm just trying to find the truth in disguise

Folks say I should keep the
Faith, believe in god, but
God doesn't answer when I'm praying
For a decent job
It's even harder watching people make a
Killin' while I stood by
A good guy, forced to play the villian
They say the way I'm
Feelin' actually defines you
Plus the way you persevere is
Why they get behind you
Rumor has it Babygrande wants to sign you
That's crazy
Chuck's a shady fuck, you've being lied to
I was forced to take my
Viper deal and re-work it
'cuz me losing an old friend to
Business didn't seem worth it
From the outside looking in, it
Seems perfect, when in fact, rap
Made my life a three-ring circus
Like I said I got a new girl
Who leads her life responsibly
Her philosophy's that it'll be 'aight
Somehow I feel the need to fight
Scream and hipe
Probably because I think I'm the piece of
Shit that I treat her like
I need advice, call tabs, weave 'em tight
Jesus Christ
I hope he calls back before I fall flat
And Sean snaps, 'cuz he
Don't get enough sleep, it seems
Attention runs deep and eats at
Him like lunch meat
Leading him to believe the end is complete
And his heart breaks
And doesn't mean he keeps the tempo up beat
It just means that unleash a
Beast is left to unleash
A shootin' spree, 'cuz as you see
It's been a rough week

This is how my thoughts move and collide to
Live with the shit I do to survive
Moving through all the rumors and lies
I'm just trying to find the truth in disguise