Doomtree - High Water lyrics

I've been fully out my head
Tell me if I'm tripping
Tell it to me straight if
There's something I am missing
In a rear view mirror, see a jackpot spinning
If we racing I'm winning
Won't break until the finish, 'til I'm dead
Tell me if I'm tripping
Tell it to me straight if
There's something I am missing
In a rear view mirror, see a jackpot spinning
If we racing I'm winning
Won't break until the finish, 'til I'm dead

I haven't been as honest with
Me as I probably should
I haven't been as honest with you
As I wish that I could
I burned the oars and made the
Map in hope that you understood
In my defence I made this
Raft out of driftwood
It's either sail or rudder
One after the other
Peace inside my chest that flutters like
A butterfly under this water
Caught up in the blotter numbers
What I could'a got
If somethin' would have caught her
If I could have caught that ember
Made a fire to remember
I do my best to render
But, I feel like a pretender, just started
Never knew where I would end up
It gets harder every year
But I never met surrender
No no give up, just to get up, now I'm here
Now I'm banging on this wall that
I've been banging on for decades
Not to be a hefe with a fan base and nest-egg
The only way to calm this chest-ache
Vibration my chest make
So I'm rappin' like a fool
Until death announces "checkmate"
Don't know if that's cool or if
I even do is workin'
Keep goin' port to port and something
Tells me that it's worth it
Keep searching for the wind to fill
The ink inside my pen
My whole life i never felt right
I'm out my head

Dimethyltripdemitri
Risen over vision while my
Body sit's beneath me
Prob'ly flip the switch and set
The ship across the sea
Lost at launch, cross the continents
Tossed amongst the wash
In the drink, these liquid lungs
Skin thickens up come to shove? pick a push
I prefer it to loss of love watch
See how if left alone, it presses on
Let the pressure start to fester
'til the next prepared departure
Peace, toss the bunny ears
Deuces, ain't no running here
Truces proving useless
This noose is removing air
I took this bait but didn't mean to
Still I seen it through, fever dreams
What's a fiend to do?

Feet first, breach birth
Home holds it breath until my screams hurt
Liked in color, later language love and yes
You learn to suffer
My departures now outnumber my arrivals
After all this evolution
Fit for nothing but survival

We fight like Kunta K, this is our bloodsport
That bite is tooth decay until the roots torn
But, I still got my wisdoms
Honestists and bad magicians
Nothin' up the bedsheets
Floating in the dead seas
Hopeless, still romantic
Romanticize the frantic
Is it safeties in my panic? is
It safeties in the numbers?
If i was trippin'
The walls would be drippin'
And I could let it go in an
Instant but this is something different
I gave the light her name
Equation made it perfect
And we can fight the flame
But the baby is what's burning
She's not the torch
Lost my head from all my wishes
Now all the kings horses trap
All the queens fishes