Dreamville, Omen, Mereba, St. Beauty, Deante’ Hitchcock - PTSD lyrics

Used to bend for me like
The steel of a hatchback
You was there for Q like
A fourth grade class fact
Q was there for me, never needed to ask that
PTSD, now I'm having a flashback
Told me I'm too sweet
Can't sleep in the trap trap
Enemy, envy, make the strap go brrat brrat
You the missing piece
No peace when I sleep now
Used to practice peace
Finna sleep with the piece now
Know I'ma miss you long as I'm alive
You said you either gon' get
Rich or die tryin'
I wish I didn't have a song to write
I know you'd probably rather
Me keep it light

My mama told me faith is all that I need
And back in the day I would've agreed
But now it's hard to believe
I still do, not 'cause I want
'cause I need to
Believe in something greater than me without
Being able to see it
So fuck a watch, I wear my heart on my sleeve
Nobody knows my sorrow
Nobody knows about the trouble I seen
A lot of dead niggas
Livin' through me, shawty
But not in the literal
Most 'em dead 'cause they
Ain't follow they dream
The power of a higher entity entered me
Mentally, physically, spiritually
I'm on a whole different energy
Fuck the world, but I need you to remember me
I had doubt in myself 'cause I used to
Fear that you would look at me differently
If I ever changed, I'm numb to it now
I don't feel the same
A slave to the feeling
I'm breaking the chains
Tryna balance out the joy, the pain, the sun
The rain
My life and the fame, done lost the game
The guilt, the shame, my skin, my veins
My soul done rained so much on my heart
Really I don't know where to start
The irony of finding self in the dark
My nigga, truthfully, feel like
It's two of me
I should've been on that ark
A love hate relationship with my thoughts
I'm tryna shine in my own light
The realest nigga left in my own right
Helping you with your vices
But can't seem to
Get a grip on my own life, yeah

I was on my way down, breakdowns
Breakthroughs bitter 'bout my debut
Gotta say I stayed true
Maybe why I stayed broke
I been on a goose chase
Gotta swallow pride when they see me
How the truth taste?
Off the beaten path like Blueface
On the North Side, had to be a Tuesday
Walkin' slow with your kids on a school day
Way past midnight suddenly my mood change
That's when the truth came
In New York hearing rumors
My sister was homeless
Don't visit her often
Been years since we talked, number changed
Saw you and my heart broke in a couple ways
I can't believe when I seen you
I knew shit was true
Stared in your eyes and I saw a different you
Skated off fast 'fore I could address it
Hope I run into you 'fore
We both get to Heaven

We 'ight, we 'ight
You opened up my eyes and
Helped me see the light we 'ight, we 'ight
You opened up my eyes and
Helped me see the light, ayy

Yeah, hahahaha
We just kickin' it, you know, ayy, woah
I'm here with all my friends
This is for the homies, for
The homies, all the homies, what? What?
And the hoes ha ha haha, yeah
Said this is for the homies, for
The homies, all the homies, what?
And the hoes
Can't forget about the hoes, yeah
For the homies, for the
Homies, for the homies, what? What?
And the hoes (Ayy, that shit sound tight)
For the homies, for the
Homies, all the homies, what? What?
And the hoes ha ha haha, yeah
Said this is for the homies, for
The homies, all the homies, what?
And the hoes
Can't forget about the hoes, my nigga, yeah
For the homies, for the
Homies, for the homies, what? What?
And the hoes