Elliott Smith - I Didn't Understand lyrics

Thought you'd be looking for the
Next in line to love
Then ignore, put out, and put away
And so you'd soon be leaving me
Alone, like I'm supposed to be
Tonight, tomorrow, and everyday

There's nothing here that you'll miss
I can guarantee you this:
Is a cloud of smoke trying to occupy space
What a fucking joke what a fucking joke

I waited for a bus to separate the both of us
And take me off, far away from you
Cause my feelings never change a bit
I always feel like shit
I don't know why, I guess that I just do

You once talked to me about love
And you painted pictures of
A Never Never Land
And I could've gone to that place
But I didn't understand

I didn't understand i didn't understand