Esham - Hold U Up lyrics

Sometimes that shit

I been around the world
I seen a lot of bitches come and go
And if you wanna know act like a woman ho
I got no time for your little games
If you don't wanna be with me I
Know a thousand different bitches names
I know I always bring the drama
I make you wanna leave me and go
Back home with your crazy mama
I ain't got nothin' else to tell ya except
I'm a natural born failure always fuckin' up
I know sometimes I make you cry
I stay out all night and come home
High and don't have a alibi
It seems I got no reasons why
I did some suicidal murder ridin' hopin'
One day I fuckin' die
These circumstances got me noid
It seems I can't avoid how ya
Analyze my lies like Sigmund Freud
And so I'm askin' for forgiveness
I don't even know why I did this
You used to be my baby

I ain't even tryin' to hold you up
(I ain't even tryin' to hold you up)
I ain't even tryin' to hold you up
I ain't even tryin' to hold you up
(I ain't even tryin' to hold you up)
I ain't even tryin' to hold you up

Ya say I fucked up with ya
Well if I did let me hit ya
One last time, so you can get the the picture

Doin' dirt, the pain follows me in many ways
It ain't no question how I feel
My shit is real
Mental thoughts are ill, murder me at will
I'm goin' crazy 'cause the thoughts
Of losin' you are fatal
There's no way to express how I'm obsessed
I couldn't stand to see you with another man
My thoughts scream "if I can't have you
No one can"
And I can't blame you for wantin' to leave
'Cause once a nigga deceive
It's hard for a bitch to believe in him
I fucked up and broke the trust
Diggin' on the DL
Fuck your best friend on the hush hush
I guess it's nothin' else to
Say except I fucked up
In the silly little games us niggas play

I ain't even tryin' to hold you up
(I ain't even tryin' to hold you up)
I ain't even tryin' to hold you up
I ain't even tryin' to hold you up
(I ain't even tryin' to hold you up)
I ain't even tryin' to hold you up

I gave you the best that
I could give to anyone
I gave you my love but I guess
My love wasn't good enough for you
So I'm leavin' you to learn
I gotta leave you
So I'm leavin' you to learn
I gotta leave you