Esham - One Day lyrics

I'd like to take this time right now
To talk to my momma momma, I know, you know
We ain't been seeing eye to eye
And I know, I been that headache, you know
The black sheep of the family
Momma, even though I'm not on this earth
Even though I'm not in a physical form momma
I want you to know i will
Always be with you momma
I will always be with you mentally momma

One day I'mma die, momma don't cry
Ain't no heaven up in the sky
One day I'mma fade away
And set the world on fire
Watch the sky turn grey

One day I'mma die, momma don't cry
Ain't no heaven up in the sky
One day I'mma fade away
And set the world on fire
Watch the sky turn grey

I was born to mourn
I guess that's why I live the life of misery
Forever through eternity
My momma was a junkie
I was born into this world a crack baby
My bottle was Brass Monkey
I developed a brain tumor
Now I consume a half ounce of Rose
I sniff bullets with my snub nose
I grew up on the east side, 7 mile area
I was raised like a pit bull terrier
I developed a criminal behavior
I murdered my first man and knew
Jesus Christ wasn't my savior
Jehovah witness
Witnessed me takin care of my business
So I shot him on my front porch
I took their bibles and burned em
I checked their pockets, turned em inside out
Dumped their bodies in the
Lake with the trout
It all started as a toddler
Now I'm a 45 bullet swallower
And momma don't cry

One day I'mma die, momma don't cry
Ain't no heaven up in the sky
One day I'mma fade away
And set the world on fire
Watch the sky turn grey

Somehow it seems momma calling my
Name in my dreams
Crack fiends, amphetamines
What does it really mean?
Sometimes it feels like I'm fallin
Am I closer to death?
Gaspin, suffocatin' for air, losin my breath
I see visions of doctors
And scalpels makin incisions
From fatal collisions to suicide decisions
Nobody knows my suffering
I bring the pain from my migrane
I swallow 23 Bufferins
I was addicted to 'caine since birth
Crack baby goin crazy
So how much is my life worth?
A baby boy that bounces
36 ounces I flip, kilograms slam from the hip
It's kinda crazy how I'm livin'
But, I'm mad on a murder
Ride nigga I'm suicide driven
I've arisen from a dead state-of-mind
To find I was blind too late
Momma don't cry

One day I'mma die, momma don't cry
Ain't no heaven up in the sky
One day I'mma fade away
And set the world on fire
Watch the sky turn grey

If I could start all over I would
But, I can't, if I could
Then my heart might have been good
I guess I lost all my time
When I lost my mind
It makes me sad to hear momma cryin'
So many dyin' i never stopped to think what
I put you through
Much love, I thought you hated me
Momma see, I never knew
I guess I walked the wrong path
In the aftermath
Many demons screamin my name
You don't know the half
I was dead a long time ago
Never resurrected
Once the 45 shell connected
With my dome, I saw my misery crack a smile
So put my dead body in the pile
And wait a while before you
Come to the cemetery
Cuz you might see my tombstone
Burnin cuz it's necessary
Pine box, my body rots with the best of em
Momma I'm dead like the rest of em
Momma don't cry

One day I'mma die, momma don't cry
Ain't no heaven up in the sky
One day I'mma fade away
And set the world on fire
Watch the sky turn grey