Esham - What Did I Do Wrong lyrics

What did I do wrong

What did I do wrong don't wanna live

What did I do wrong don't wanna live

My momma was a dope fiend but what I mean
She was manic depressed, like the Supremes
And all my tears wiped with the Kleenex
I'm on the scene and I
Drop dead like River Phoenix
A life I can't handle
So I drink Jack Daniels
Straight, I bought me a 38
With one shiny silver bullet
For the werewolf in me I don't pretend to be
I'm fucked up off life
I walk around with a bloody butcher knife
I wanna kill myself, but first
I think about what's worse
I vision my body take a ride in a hearse
And somebody, anybody, but nobody hears
Buried alive, pine box, and my deepest fears
I been doin' dope since I was 13
But when I close my
Eyes unconsciously I scream

What did I do wrong don't wanna live

Overdose scare again, I'm doin' heroin
Syringe stuck in my leg like Nancy Kerrigan
Heroin addict like Kurt Cobain
Needle's in your dick
Cause your arms outta veins
The system raped me, society hates me
The man in the mirror is scared to face me
My only friend is me
But how can I pretend to be
My friend, I'm public enemy
A number one, son of a shotgun
So when I blasphemy, I bust a brain cell
Dead cells make me faint
But, I can't faint no more I
Don't dream and never sleep walk
Uncut dope make me comatose
Growin' up around the scandalous from
Here to Los Angeles
What does it mean, amphetamine
Niggas so envy they green
As I watch the fiends fiend
My thoughts scream

What did I do wrong don't wanna live

Your body's cold
You feel numb from your addiction
Just say no's a contradiction
It seems like the whole world's high
And I'm tryin' not to fry
Brain cells passin' time until I die
Suicide contemplated everything's
Drug related i wish when my father got
Erect he woulda masturbated
Sperm concentrated now they sell
It at the bank what has life come to? Tell
Me what do you think?
Crack babies be born like everyday
A sucka born every minute right around my way
What a rush when you're brain bust
All your shit got flushed
Down the toilet stool what a fool
Who gives a fuck if
You self-destruct all your
Hopes and dreams? 'Cause you just a fiend
And this world ain't big enough
For the both of us
Who can I trust with one slug down to bust?
And say

What did I do wrong don't wanna live