Eyedea, Abilities - A Murder of Memories lyrics

That's him in the corner of social oblivion
Encompassed by the sweet sense of freedom
That only borders the aura
Of deep cerebral gouges
Buried in each beat of the heart
He was once proud to home
If only his substance held a
Higher level of potence
He might be able to drown
The portion of his mind
Which is trapped in the infinite hoard
Of his 1972 through '74 tour through
The flames of this hell

Sometimes gunfire is brighter
Than the sunshine
And sometimes a child's scream
Influences every dream
Sometimes we fool ourselves into
Thinking we've moved on but no way, no how
Do we ever forget what we've seen
No way, no how
Do we ever forget what we've seen
No way, no how
Do we ever forget what we've seen
No way, no how
Do we ever forget what we've seen
No way, no how
Do we ever forget what we've seen

It's now twenty-five years later
He's on the brink of forty-three
Still searching for sanity
Surveying the floor of his distorted sea
He remembers high-school friends joking
About the war
Never knew what mom was crying for
(Never knew what mom was crying for)
The other piece that shines in his
Mind was a divine first love
Sewn made, beauty
Brown-eyed queen he left behind
He remembers holding her tight
Watching the sunset at shore
Never knew what she was crying for
(Never knew what she was crying for)
He got the letter in the mail
By the middle of his summer
Wouldn't have had to go if it
Wasn't for his newborn brother
He was barely eighteen
Murdering people even younger
And he still ducks and covers every
Time he hears the thunder
He still hears the screams, smells the flesh
Tastes the death sees the blood, feels the
Pain, what's to gain, nothing's left
But the slug that remains in his right calf
The bullet laughs every time he cries
And it drives him mad trying to sleep
But the visions give him a cold sweat
The war's been over for two decades
But he still hasn't been home yet
And every day he wait's and
Strains to suppress his guilt
And forget the horror and the violence
The "kill or be killed"
Fists, they always clenched teeth
They always grinding
Real life is lost and in a
Bottle he tries to find it "It's not fair
" he mumbles through a nightmare
Only in a fight for two years and
Wound up spending his whole life there

He was face to face with the devil
For the welfare of his country
Now he's straining to live but
His conscience won't let him
It ain't flashbacks, you have
To understand the tragedy, see
He left the war, but the war never left him
See
He left the war, but the war never left him
See
He left the war, but the war never left him
See
He left the war, but the war never left him
See he left the war

It's now twenty-five years later
He's on the edge of a park bench
He asked God for hope and
Found his source non-existent
He sit's in the shadows
Because the sun burns no more
Now he knows what mom was crying for
(Now he knows what mom was crying for)
I used to watch old man in the park
The sights slowly drove fright
Through my heart
Wishing I could help but not
Knowing where to start
I'd walk away, curse the world
Gush some love and curse some more
Now you know who I've been crying for
(Now you know who I've been crying for)
He threw his medals in the
River but they sunk alone
Put shades on his eyes to hide it
From the war zone in the sky
He tried to slit his wrists about a month ago
But he's seen so much death
He's scared to life of suicide
If there was only some way
He could escape this penitentiary
Goals get bigger and figures it'll
Chase away his memory
But the dreams only worsen
The scenes almost burst in
He recalls how training took away his
Right to be a person put a gun in his hand
Left him to die for the land
The plan was the murder of man
(The plan was the murder of man)
Politicians have a dispute to decide
To send in troops
But the truth is they just don't understand
(They just don't understand)
Now he's running out of time
And running out of energy
But 'til the last day he will fight
For the murder of his memories
And although he never got rid of his dog tags
He still wishes they'd have sent his parents
An American flag instead of him

He was face to face with the devil
For the welfare of his country
Now he's straining to live but
His conscience won't let him
It ain't flashbacks, you have
To understand the tragedy, see
He left the war, but the war never left him
See
He left the war, but the war never left him
See
He left the war, but the war never left him
See
He left the war, but the war never left him
See he left the war

Sometimes gunfire is brighter
Than the sunshine
And sometimes a child's scream
Influences every dream
Sometimes we fool ourselves into
Thinking we've moved on but no way, no how
Do we ever forget what we've seen
No way, no how
Do we ever forget what we've seen
No way, no how
Do we ever forget what we've seen
No way, no how
Do we ever forget what we've seen
No way, no how
Do we ever forget what we've seen