Eyedea - The Breaks lyrics

Dear Mrs Burden this is very hard to say
But, I sincerely hope that
You're doing alright
I know my attempts will never ease your pain
But since it happened I truly
Haven't slept a night
I'm haunted by her innocent face
Each breath I take reflects my mistake
I never wanted to be the
End of someone's fate
Mrs Burden, my scars grow deeper every day
I know tomorrow she would have been eight
If it wasn't for my
Irresponsible methods of escape
I understand why I'm subject to your hate
But, I swear she came out
Of nowhere and by the
Time I hit the brakes it was too late
Crash, crumbled, the castle in my head
My body froze when I saw
That little girl was dead
And on the side of the road
I heard the mother crying
At the corner of ignorance and life
I ran a stop sign
I wish I could go back in the
Past and not drink that last glass
The day altered eternity and I
Can't stop thinking of how
It probably wouldn't have happened
If I wasn't drinking
And now I swallow this holy water
I'm sorry that I murdered your only daughter
I'm not writing this to
Gain your forgiveness
But only to show my suffering as honor
Oh why did I survive and a child died
I wish it was the other way around
She had so much ahead of her
So much to live for
And that so much is nothing now

Mrs Burden, Mrs Caroline Burden
I don't expect my apology
To bandage your burns but each instant
Remorse slowly eats at the core of my heart
If I'd have only kept my car parked
Now every time I close my eyes
I hear that girl's cries
I'm not comfortably numb like
The criminals you despise
Even though I'm physically unable
To run from it this jail sentence is the
Lightest of my punishments
It was an accident and in hell I'm burning
On my cell wall is a
Silhouette of one Felicity Burden
Who was introduced to death at
A young age of six
In broad daylight a block away
From where she lives
I got off work early so I stopped at the bar
Then not using my head I hopped in my car
Intoxicated speeding home to surprise my
Wife and my child
I was so close, but yet so far away

So now I swallow this holy water
I'm sorry that I murdered your only daughter
I'm not writing this to gain your pity
But, I hurt too, for god's sake Caroline
Don't forget I was her father
And I always will be and still am
Sincerely yours with love forever
William D burden
I'm sorry, that's all I can say i'm sorry