Felly - Splurge lyrics

If I could tell you how I really felt
Well I really probably wouldn't
At the bottom of the bucket
Got and bought some shit I shouldn't
And now I'm feeling crooked and
My money is spent
Saved up for happiness but I
Was short by a cent so I splurged
I couldn't find the words to express
Running circles in my mind till that
Shit was out of breath
And I just want to feel content but I won't
Cause all this pressure got me
Tight by the throat
It's just another long night
Got home and laughed
Cause driving home going
Ninety almost crashed
At least someone's got my back
I like to think that it's
My father looking down
Pardon my stupidity, I'll come around
And find my way up, back up on my feet
Maybe catch peace get a little bit of sleep
Cause in these troubled times we
All looking for some solace
Mama's getting worried, I'ma be fine
I promise it's hard to keep that hope
When you staring at reality
Cause what's real is working
Nights for your salary
That rough shit in free time gets me thinking
No wonder everybody smoking herb and drinking
When winter comes I'll fold up
Freeze with the cold
Those dark months in the
State are getting old
Maintaining my hope with a focus on the real
Put everything in music so don't
Ask me how I feel i used to want to grow up
And now I want to grow down
A fast life always ends in a slow down
And holding to the hope
Is the everyday struggle
Just want to break free
From this everyday bubble
I dream a new life and some complex shit
I'm more than what you heard
On my compact disc can't slip
Gotta grip to what I truly desire
But trying to finding happiness
Is making me tired

So I tell it like it is i'm just a kid
I don't want to end up the way that you did
I got some bigger dreams that
A sleep can't give
I'd rather have a smile than a big mansion