Flatsound - A Morning Spent Thinking of a Life Without You lyrics

Tonight I walked through a field
That used to scare me
More than I scared myself
And thought of the last time
That I felt hopeless
Sixteen in my father's car wondering how
An artificial light could make
Me feel so empty and if it looked as dull
Pouring from street lights
As it did shining from my tiny arms
On days when the world was too loud
And my voice was too small

I wish I had known you then
About your mind and how it
Perfectly mimics my own
Or how good it felt to lie in this field
Knowing it was never death that interested me
It was the idea of an opportunity
To follow a cold breeze
That promised to take me anywhere but here
And you thanked me for curing you
For saving your life when
You thought nobody could
And reminding you that people
Are worth loving and worth holding onto
But I'm left with a knot in my chest asking
Why this feels so much like
Leaving and letting go

Treat me like a stained mattress
Rest your body on my body
Let me feel the weight of your existence
So I know what purpose feels like
And I'll lie patiently, waiting for a kiss
Three seconds to prove to you
That the biggest mistake of your life
Was jumping before the building collapsed

I'm sorry you thought this couldn't work
Because I've never wanted anything more
In my entire life than to prove that it could