Flatsound - A small list of things that i normally would hide lyrics

I'll sit and pretend
I know someone at an intimate depth
It only makes me feel like shit in the end
'Cause you're only as good as the
People you consider your friends

So watch an aching past surface
And now I'm half certain
That everyone who associates with me
Is a bad person
Because everyone who associates with
Me is as worthless
Now I finally understand what it
Means to lack courage
'Cause at the end of the day
It just defeats the damn purpose
To share the fruit of your
Knowledge while completely malnourished
So I've been trying to let go of
The things that torture me inside
Congratulations, you're cordially invited to
A small list
Of things that I normally would hide
Like high school
No comprehension of enough harm
Codeine for numb hearts and
Patching up cut arms
But drinking cough syrup when you
Didn't have a cough
Is ironic, because, in reality
You're sicker than you thought
But like hearing new music and being
Too scared to turn it up
Virgin blood mostly told me to
Stop at the surface cuts
And sometimes I wouldn't eat more
Than a couple bites
And sometimes I'd go a week and not
Sleep more than a couple nights
And sometimes I'd get so wrapped
Up in the "couple life"
When the "couple life" failed me
The first couple times

But I am grateful that it seems stupid
And I'm grateful that I miss you
Because the last two years are something I'm
Glad I had to sit through
Because now that I know what it means to
Be dead I can start living again
Yeah, now that I know what
It means to be dead i can start living

I can smell it when I breathe
I can feel it when you leave
I can start living again

So, I'm leaving behind the people who
Said I wasn't brave enough
Wrote an album called "Sleep" and realized
That it's about waking up fuck