Flow, NERO - Lila lyrics

Woke up feeling like the world is against me
Like the people that i trust will betray me
Like they waiting for me with
A knife to stab me like they wanna see me
Dead and celebrate that
Like they thirsty for my blood
They wanna drink it
Even women that i love i do not trust them
My brother is telling me i
Need to keep on smiling
My inner-self is telling me people ain’t shit
People laugh at you for attempting
To better your life
I was going through the most and no
One gave a dammn about me
I was going through depression and no
One gave a dammn about me
I was starving there alone
I was dying there alone

Why you telling me I shouldn't do it?
You see many before me have gone through it
You said men don't cry, that I should smile
Well, Well I can't hold inside no more

Ngizolila (Coz i can't keep it inside)
Ngizolila (I'm really broken inside)
Ngizolila (I gotta let it all out)
You said men don't cry, that I should smile
Well, I can't hold it inside no more

I’m sorry, Nondumiso Bhengu i pushed you away
(I said I'm sorry)
I was scared uzongjudger nawe but anyway
I’ll forever be grateful for ever meeting you
(I'll be ever grateful)
And to ULebogang Khoza, uyaz mnganam sisonke
Four years of greatness namajita sisonke
Abo Wisdom abo Brenden bes’phusha sonke
(Oooh Kithi sonke)
One day day ngfuna sihlangane sishaye ibraai
And hopefully this time angekhe
S’shaya amafake wemali
(And you will me hold me down)
People laugh at you for attempting
To better your life
I was going through the most and no
One gave a dammn about me
(And nobody, nobody, nobody)
I was going through depression and no
One gave a damn about me
I was at the Makhanda struggling and
No one cared about me
Got a lot of problems in
My life that I'm facing (Lila Lila Lila)
You will find me with my beer
In the land of over-thinking
Chilling with anxiety, depression and regrets
And a 24 pack of Heineken next to me

Why you telling me I shouldn't do it?
You see many before me have gone through it
You said men don't cry, that I should smile
Well, Well I can't hold inside no more

Ngizolila (Coz i can't keep it inside)
Ngizolila (I'm really broken inside)
Ngizolila (I gotta let it all out)
You said men don't cry, that I should smile
Well, I can't hold it inside no more