Flowz Dilione - Depressed Confessions lyrics
[Flowz Dilione - Depressed Confessions lyrics]
Depressed Confessions shoutouts to J-Star
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Yo, Was i born to live my life like this?
That is the question
The answer is a sliced wrist
I see the knives tip penetrate my skin
No forgiveness for my sins
I'm sinking quicker as i drink
Drinking liqour as i think vivid pictures
Come to mind of my past
I should've never let that bitch into my life
Am i living just to die?
My hearts commiting suicide
What i've witnessed with my eyes makes
Me wish that I was blind
I can't take this reality is killing
Me inside fuck I hate this
I numb the pain by sniffing all these lines
You see i've always had these problems
Ever since an early age
Nothing seems to stop them I really
Need to learn to change
My bed's an early grave and I can't wake up
My heart doesn't beat and you
Wonder why I hate love?
And why I take drugs
It's because in my life
Every fucking day sucks
Try seeing shit through my eyes
I have an alcoholic father who
Is killing is himself
Drowns his pain in a bottle
That is killing his health
And my mum has Hep-C she's dying slowly
This is why i'm empty and the
Reason I get no sleep
I have two older brothers
Who are both schitzofrenic
Too many bongs sent both of
Their minds into panic
My brother Jesse once put a gun to my chest
So don't tell me that marijuana
Doesn't fuck with your head
My sister once was in love with the meth
Until she overdosed
And i pray that she never does it again
And what about my little
Brother? my best friend?
He looked to me for directions and I
Sent him into a dead end
I used to pack his cones, when he was 12
So I didn't have to be
Alone and smoke by myself
Now he's schtizing as well
Fuck what have I done?
I've just added another chapter to
This story of drugs this story is fucked
And I haven't even finished
I'm just scratching the surface on
Emotions that are hidden
And I find it hard to write sometimes
I'm sick of saying the same
Shit, when I try describe my life
It's time i tried fuck to be a better
Person, I'm tired of lies
And hiding behind the curtains
I needa find the light of day
I know that it's hard
But, I have to find the way, fuck it because
If I don't then the fucking light will fade
And I'll be trapped in this
Darkness inside this rage
My minds insane, I'm on the edge of insanity
And if I ever fell
Would anybody remember me?
Is this how I'm meant to be?
Is this my chosen path?
Cutting my veins open
With the pieces of my broken heart
I know it's hard it wasn't meant to be easy
Like trying to figure out the answers
To why did she leave me?
But fuck it i've only got
One more thing to say
Life is a living hell but
Death won't extinguish the flames
Fuck it I''m out fuck you