Flowz Dilione, Mostack - R.I.P lyrics

All the bad things I've done have
Gone and made me mad
I'm beggin for forgiveness
Prayin I can take em back
Wakin up in cold sweats
Nightmares are crazy as
Flashbacks of dead faces has me breakin bad
Apologies to all my fans, I'm sorry kids
I ain't no role model nah
I've done alotta shit
Mum would be ashamed if she even
Knew the half of it
Emotionless, I don't feel nothin
When the shotty kicks
If the good die young, I'll live a long life
Lord forgive me he was in that
Place at the wrong time
Somethin that I gotta live with
Until the day I die
This is what it sounds like when a thug cries
Sometimes I want to put it down
And leave it all behind
Cryin at my brothers' grave
Thinkin is there more to life?
To go and take a mother's son
Ain't nothin to be glorified
But, if I ever catch his killers
I'ma go and make it right

RIP, is all I see
The shish shit is all I breathe
Money and my family is all I need
Nightmares is all I dream
Night, night, night
Ambulance ain't here in time
Just lost another boy's life
Told her boy his mummy don't cry
Everything's gonna be alright, alright

'So a horrific scene, we've got the death of
A young boy, uh his mother is clearly
Absolutely distraught and our thoughts
And prayers go
Out to her and the extended family'

Just to try and numb the pain
Every night I'm smokin weed
Pop a hundred xannies hopin maybe
I can go to sleep
God forgives everyone is somethin
That I don't believe
Starin in the mirror I don't know
Who's lookin back at me
He was alive a week ago but he's dead today
I've done a lot of bad things
Some shit that I can never say
Hangin out the window of the
Passi with a big thing
Catch him in his driveway trust
Me I'ma let it spray bally on my face
I've forgotten what I look like
Stuff the double in the duffle
Kiss my missus goodnight
The day they took my brother's life
Away they went and took mine
So if I ever catch his killers
I ain't gonna think twice
They say revenge is sweet
It's a vicious circle
A question I never ask myself is it worth it?
Ever since the day he died
I've been a different person
So I ain't ever gonna stop
Until they in a hearse