G-Eazy - Wanna Be Myself lyrics

I just wanna do these drugs tonight
'cause I just wanna be myself
I forgot how to be myself
I just really miss myself
I just wanna do these drugs tonight
'cause I just wanna be myself (Yeah)
I forgot how to be myself (Uh)
I just really miss myself
(Somebody asked me, yeah)

Somebody asked me
"What do you have outside of music
That really makes you happy?"
I thought about it and I
Ain't have no answer
I started this shit ten years ago
It was just me and my manager
On the road, doin' any shows
We was fillin' up this calendar
But Matty's married now and it's
A whole 'nother chapter
While I'm in Gerryland
I'm still here wildin' as a bachelor
Woke up next to a stranger
What's her name? I had to ask her
She prolly thinks I got it all
But it's pain behind this laughter
Hungover the mornin' after, close my drapes
Make it blackout
Tryna put the pieces together from last
Night when I blacked out
On LSD, had a convo with my brother
It brought a lot up
See I don't ever take the uniform off
And now I'm clocked out

I just wanna do these drugs tonight
'cause I just wanna be myself
I forgot how to be myself
I just really miss myself
I just wanna do these drugs tonight
'cause I just wanna be myself
I forgot how to be myself, yeah
I just really miss myself (Yeah)

Comin' down in my room all
Alone listenin' to Mac
Last time he text me, I was fucked up
Forgot I didn't hit him back
Wish I could have spoken up, man
I just want my brother back
But I mean, who am I to talk
Bro? I'm still livin' like that
They'll never understand what it's like
To be a artist make some shit I don't feel
Yes men tell me it's the hardest
They just wanna keep their jobs
Stay on my good side, keep their office
Keep us on the road
And no commission or the profit's
Now everything is peachy, and yeah
I feel Avicii fifty thousand watchin' me
But I swear don't nobody see me
But it's rich people problems
It's stamps all in my passport
My mama tellin' me that
"This is everything you asked for"
What you want?

I just wanna do these drugs tonight
'cause I just wanna be myself
I forgot how to be myself (How to be myself)
I just really miss myself
(Great mind, great mind)
I just wanna do these drugs tonight
'cause I just wanna be myself
I forgot how to be myself, yeah
I just really miss myself

My anxiety increases the higher that I climb
I thought this shit would get easier
Easier with time i'm happy in my mind
But at least I tell myself that
Guess I'm damaged goods, I cannot help that
Drugs take the edge off
Hide inside my comfort zone
Different girl every night
But worry I'ma die alone
Me against the world
Can't decide now what side I'm on
Miss my family but act like I
Can't even dial a phone
Cheated on my girl, I felt like shit
And then I sped off
Crept in the crib quiet, shower
Took my YSL off she woke up, grab my dick
I couldn't help it, had to get off
And if she gave me head
Felt like I wanna blow my head off
Think everybody cheats, everybody will
Everybody leaves, but these drugs never will
I know that sounds fucked up, but in the end
It's real 'Til I'm lost on a bender
Askin' myself can I chill
This scale here will measure
Five hundred pounds of pressure
The only thing to alleviate it is
A stash in the dresser illuminate my ugly
You really sure you love me?
You deserve to know the truth
Decide now what you think of me

I just wanna do these drugs tonight
'cause I just wanna be myself
I forgot how to be myself
I just really miss myself
I just wanna do these drugs tonight
'cause I just wanna be myself
I forgot how to be myself, yeah
I just really miss myself