GHOSTEMANE, Evil Pimp - Black Cloudz lyrics

Whatever you're thinking, you better not say
It might be the last
You better be cool when I make no pass
I'm fighting the demons that live in my past
They all coming back and
I'm letting them speak speaking of me
All the unspeakable things I seen in my brain
It's hard to be good when
You need to maintain
A level of thought About sending em back
No time today
If I'm doing right or am I doing wrong?
I'm making my way to get back to the morn'
I'm wondering if I won't be any more
Than a broke white kid in a burgundy donk
I figured if there was a God then
He would've showed me the way
But I do not care about
Another soul besides myself anyway
And now I'm looking around and
All I see is desperation
To the level where making fake
Claims is normal behavior
See but I don't fit into the
Model I was given at birth
Sometimes I look into my eyes and
See things not of this earth
You talk like you in the struggle
You thinking that you hot shit
But what you're going through now is what
I went through as a jit
But now I'm older and trying to
See life in a positive light
Until the clouds above my head
This side is looking too bright
To be the light

I carry myself from the bottom
Never been to the top
I roll the dice when I make it, hoe
Every time that I drop
Seen a lot of dead presidents
But not seen one alive
But yet this man at the White
House is still controlling my life
So I speak clear to my children
Told them this in they ear
To just believe what you see
And disregard what you hear
I hope I leave here tomorrow
See the world through a bottle
That's they idol like but yet
I ain't no role model
Struggle hard for a dollar, ain't no rapping
No eating many nights stayed up late
I'm in the studio sleeping
Time to wait for nobody
In them houses you buy this life is no DVD
There ain't no hitting rewind
What age will I be when I die?
What did my mothers to cry?
And all the things that I did
Can't look my dad in his eyes
Children was just some petty time wasted
But now my new sign is here
To give foundation

All these black clouds in my life and
I just can't get myself out
And all the times I thought I
Was doing straight but I drowned
I just sit back and I'm thinking with
A brass monkey on my side
I would not change a thing even if
I can go back in time
All these black clouds in my life and
I just can't get myself out
And all the times I thought I
Was doing straight but I drowned
I just sit back and I'm thinking with
A brass monkey on my side
I would not change a thing even if
I can go back in time