GRANT KNOCHE - FIRST HELLO lyrics

Staring at my ceilin'
Convince myself it's nothin'
Pray to God to fix me
Feelin' guilty havin' thoughts at
12 years old is momma gonna like this?
I'm riskin' her of grandkids
Seven years of fightin'
And I don't wanna fight no more

So I wanna let it out wasn't ready then
But, I'm ready now

I want my friends to know me
Like, really, really know me
I hope this doesn't change things
They say that boys don't cry
But news flash, that's a lie
I don't fit inside your boxes
I can't stop this, no

So I'm counting down unlock my cell
And come on out

Oh my, beautiful bliss
I'm so foreign to this
Tell you what my walls know
Here's my first hello oh my, such a relief
I can be me i don't put on no show
It's my first hello (Oh oh, oh oh, oh)
It's my first hello (Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh)

All that I said, all that I did
I learned to lock my thoughts up carefully
I held my breath, I broke my heart
I bit my tongue, it starts to bleed and I
I hope you know that it's not your fault
Hope my father understands
I'm not any less a man

Oh my, beautiful bliss
I'm so foreign to this
Tell you what my walls know
Here's my first hello oh my, such a relief
I can be me i don't put on no show
It's my first hello (Oh oh, oh oh, oh)
It's my first hello (Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh)

I wanna let it out wasn't ready then
But, I'm ready now