Ham Sandwich (USA), Shwabadi - Supposed To Be lyrics

What the hell am I supposed to be?
Whole world feels so cold to me
Can't let you get close cause life
Could switch up changing tonally
Went from holding groceries to
Toting toasters holding heat
This whole system's broken me
Or maybe reawoken

Something in me that I can't ignore
Carnivores blood is tainted, drain it
Stain the Hardwood floor
You saw in black and white
But now it's changed up like a Harpsichord
You can not step up now, don't
Touch the things you can't afford
You can't afford
Cause I am the product of people as products
They tried to make stars out
Of kids that were fodder
But don't even bother, that life isn't for us
If we're being honest society's wild
And I'm seeking the forest
I'm seeking to forage
The meaning that's for us
And I mean some days, man, I feel like Adonis
But some days I'm sick to
The pit of my stomach
Can't stick it, of course I'mma vomit
Of course I've been sick
Of divisionist systems
But who am I? To deny that my nature
It is or it isn't
Exactly what they had envisioned
Exactly what they told me from the start
You get what you're given
You're marked as a piston
But I've played the
Part of a cog that won't fit in
We can break the machine from within it
Life is savage
Go from aiming for the sky to
Aiming down the sights of automatics
Turning friends to corpses, tragic
Cash ain't all that rules us
But it plays a fucking part
Just don't panic
There's a few that might still
Aim to be the star

What the hell am I supposed to be?
Whole world feels so cold to me
Can't let you get close cause life
Could switch up changing tonally
Went from holding groceries to
Toting toasters holding heat
This whole system's broken me
Or maybe reawoken

I am awake
But now I'm scared to look myself in the face
Homie murdered, eaten without a trace
Give me some space
I need to wait! I can not wait around
Throwing my weight around
Sneak through the lobby
I don't even make a sound
Goons in the mafia, we finna take 'em out
Chasing a rabbit and I'm finna take her out
I'm finna friend or food
My body can't tell the difference
Why I gotta keep my distance
Questioning can we live in coexistence?
When there's bodies being sold as a business
Seeing neighbours in and out of that district
See 'em fiending for a piece or fiending for
Some medication just to suppress the instinct
Equal rights? What a brilliant lie
Every night another innocent dies
They got every right to have
That fear in their eyes
Because all of us have got a villain inside
And I'm slowly turning into what I despise
Who am I? Suit and tie
Jacket off, rabbit paw in my pants
Drag 'em off
Lucky me, but my body backing off
This shit is too dangerous
And it's obvious we wasn't made for this
See, we living in peace, but it's paper thin
We in pieces, the people just play pretend
This impossible logic ain't making sense
And I'm positive, I need to make amends
So until I do it I'mma stay condemned
To find the man in charge and
Put a stake in them, i wonder

What the hell am I supposed to be?
Whole world feels so cold to me
Can't let you get close cause life
Could switch up changing tonally
Went from holding groceries to
Toting toasters holding heat
This whole system's broken me
Or maybe reawoken
What the hell am I supposed to be?
Whole world feels so cold to me
Can't let you get close cause life
Could switch up changing tonally
Went from holding groceries to
Toting toasters holding heat
This whole system's broken me
Or maybe reawoken