HighSchool Kid - Beautiful Pain lyrics

I used to shut my door while
My mother screamed in the kitchen
I'd turn the music up
Get high and try not to listen
To every little fight
'cause neither one was right
I swore I'd never be like them
But I was just a kid back then

Am so fucking lonely, I know you gon leave me
Cuz when you get the chance
You gonna stab my heart

I used to be mad but now I know
Sometimes it's better to let someone go
It just hadn't hit me yet the older I get

I was gonna fight for your love, I was
Gonna beat anyone that's tryna take you away
I don't want you to let go
My Heart told me that you gonna leave me
My mind told me that
You gonna break me, Karma is a
Bad bitch that comes anytime
That stays anytime and leave anytime

I taught she was the one
My heart said your not the one
Huh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
I said wait I just wanna take a deep break
From everything that's tryna drive
Me insane, I know you didn't want me
I know you didn't need me
I know you didn't love me

Am so fucking lonely, I know you gon leave me
Cuz when you get the chance
You gonna stab my heart

I was gonna fight for your love, I was
Gonna beat anyone that's tryna take you away
I don't want you to let go (ohh yeah)
I said fuck you, I hate you, you just played
Me like a baby, it was so crazy damn
I just put her In the past and then fuckin'
Chased the bag and accomplish all my dreams

Damn I never knew love was like this
I only taught It was in the
Movies but this is just reality

I used to shut my door while
My mother screamed in the kitchen
I'd turn the music up
Get high and try not to listen
To every little fight
'cause neither one was right
I swore I'd never be like them
But I was just a kid back then