Illogic - I Wish He Would Make Me (Celestial Clockwork) lyrics

Carpe Diem
The philosophy I've come to embrace
On a trek to find myself
With God pleading my case
I no longer wanna straddle the
Fence of the agnostic
Due to my success, within my flesh
I've become a hostage
My light doesn't shine anymore
A dimmer switch has darkened the filament
I was the sun
Now I'm a star in the skies of ignorance
My heart's become hate trapped
Within this frozen puddle
Now dispensing soul's reflections soaked
In subtle hypocrisy
I've disgraced my own name
Because I'm living life logically
Consistent with the secular realm
An illogistic dichotomy
I haven't lost faith
But I've misplaced my spirituality
Hope an ocean is created for
Relationship to float in reality
'Cause now I'm trapped in the storm's eye
These heavy rains I can't handle
Need to become a lighthouse instead
Of a flickering candle
Need to rededicate my life
Don't know if I'm ready
I know I have to make a choice
But I wish he would make me

I've strayed from the path predestined for me
I'm ill now, but walking right
I'd be an iller MC
I know I can overcome this rut
'cause God put it in me
But, I have to find it
Stop walking this earthly road blinded
Every word read is God-given
This is my theory
I'm in a place now that doesn't
Compare to where I could be
I know I can overcome this rut
'cause God put it in me
But, I have to find it
Stop walking this earthly road blinded

Due to my reflection
I've lost love 'cause God was an afterthought
Showed me the one prepared for me
She was snatched from my heart
I understand the mirror of pain
Gave a nice view
Revealing what I had to do to
Be reshaped and made anew
This is hard 'cause for a while
I wouldn't look in God's direction
Pissed 'cause I had this life
Of disappointment and rejection
But, I've come to realize that when
I fell in this rut
God was tearing me down so he
Could build me back up
See, I've been caught to rock a crowd
With an anointing like no other
And be a prime example for
My friends and my brothers
Now I need the strength to take
The step from this shadow
Giving my silhouette features as my
Teacher points the arrow
I was told sin's wide
And righteousness is narrow
I must prepare for it to be just guiding me
The way through the sea
I need to rededicate my life
Don't know if I'm ready
I know I gotta make a choice
But I wish he would make me

I'm locked in this cage and
Only I have the key i'm trying to pick the
Lock without surrendering completely
I know I can overcome this rut
'cause God put it in me
But, I have to find it
Stop walking this earthly road blinded
I'm tired of having my eyes covered
I'm trying to see the Promised Land over the
Mountain waiting for me
I know I can overcome this rut
'cause God put it in me
But, I have to find it and
Stop walking this earthly road blinded
I have to find it and stop
Walking this earthly road blinded
I have to find it and stop
Walking this earthly road blinded
I have to find it and stop
Walking this earthly road blinded
God, I wish he would make me

Sing praise to the Lord hallelujah
Sing praise to the Lord hallelujah
Sing praise to the Lord hallelujah
Sing, sing to my lord
Sing praise to the Lord hallelujah
Sing praise to the Lord hallelujah
Sing praise to the Lord hallelujah
Sing, sing to my Lord