Ingested - Scratch the Vein lyrics

I can't eat and I can't sleep
Where am I going, who will come with me?
The signs are there for all to see
But, I am blinded by my enmity

I cut the lines and I cut my losses
No one knows what my loss truly is
I'll scratch the vein
Despite what it could mean
I need this pain inside to keep me free
I'm hooked on drugs, they are hooked on hope
All I think about is tightening the rope
I fear no fear, because no fear I see
All of this time
The fear has been deep within me
In all my life, I'm forgetting to live
What would I givе
Is be clear of the things I'm yеt to forgive
As the wounds scab over
The scars are there as proof you're not sober

My world is plagued with disconnect
I will ignore what's being thrown at me
Every drop the money just bleeds
The thing that matters is the fix I need

I cut the lines and I cut my losses
No one knows what my loss truly is
I'll scratch the vein
Despite what it could mean
I need this pain inside to keep me free

I'm hooked on drugs, they are hooked on hope
All I think about is tightening the rope
I fear no fear, because no fear I see
All of this time
The fear has been deep within me
Deep within me

I will break free of this hold
It's time to change my own mould
My days are getting brighter still
The shadow controlled
My poison picked for far too long
I believed I was gone
A soul dimmed of all it shone
My heart still beats on
I kept my past inside the present
And dwelled on it all
Time to prove I'm made of gold
Before my kingdom falls