ItsUnknownMF - Pain lyrics

Spillin' my pain on this guitar
Fillin’ this page with all my thoughts
Thinkin' of ways to make it out
Dreams of hittin' the stage and
There’s thousands screamin' loud
My mom's concerned about my future
I think she doubts the music
Cause she prefers I was a college student
Sorry, that's not on my to do list
I told her, "One day, I'm a make it"
She wished that it could happen sooner
Me and you both, me and you both
I'm puttin' my heart and soul into every line
But, it's really startin’ to take it's toll
Cause my bars and my flows
Don’t even get recognized
All of this rage just sit's
Put pen to page and get
Everythin' off my chest, yea, yea
Things gotta change real quick
Shit can not stay like this
Failure I won’t accept, yea, yea
Was talkin' shorty
She told me I was different
Treated her right, wasn't the cheatin' type
So I was confused as to what caused the riff
She went back to her ex
Said not to call again
Haven’t spoke to my dad in like six years
He sends me text and I don't read em'
I just delete em'
Cause I don't need the lectures about life
Tryna instill fear
And get me to switch careers
You think this shit ain't worth
The time I spend
But, with these words I'm a be
Able to pay my rent
There's days where I'm alone
Afraid that I won't blow
Cause all I fuckin' have is this pen, damn
I can just pray and wish
For better days to live
I am just too depressed, yea, yea
I have amazin' gifts
The world gonna play my hit's
This pain will turn to checks, yea, yea