ItsUnknownMF - Thoughts lyrics

My thoughts are getting a little too loud

Shit is really sad
I spend more time with this pen
And pad than my own family
Busy gettin' to the bag
Workin' hard so I can hold Grammy
I want this shit so fuckin' bad
So my dreams ain’t takin' no back seat
Its hard for me to split the time
A part of me just wish to die
So, I don’t gotta deal with pain
Does God even listen to my cries?
Does he exist or is it lies?
Cause if he did why I feel the same?
Afraid to fall in love
I don’t wanna to get hurt again
And give a bitch the world again
End up depressed, feel the worst again
My trust, time and love no one dеserves again
New girls turn to еx’s
I’m writin' a verse again
Gotta be careful who I’m
Spendin' my time with
That cost a pretty penny and I lost plenty
So all you gettin' is hi and bye
I am not beggin' for a reply
I gotta stop stressin', but my hearts heavy
My nana’s cancer reached stage four
Angry with God cause what the
Fuck was the prayin' for
I love her a lot, need to say it more
Cause I don’t how many days are left
Before she takes her last breath
My heart gon' stay torn
The devil on my shoulder gettin' louder
He sayin', nobody cares for you
He sayin', I should kill my self he sayin'
If you do nobody shed a tear for you
Now you need some help
But who’s here for you
Goin' through troublin' times wonderin' why
God doesn’t wanna save me
Cause my mind racin' and I try
Daily just to let it go
Hidin' behind fake smiles lately
And nobody knows
I’ve been keepin' this inside
So nobody worries my demons very much alive
And I’m fuckin' hurtin'
Can’t even sleep at night
Without tossin' and turnin'
I have nobody to sit and talk
It’s just me and my thoughts