Jakprogresso - Ex Ray Sky lyrics

Her idea of paradise is tropical
Water islands with white sands
Mine is grey skies and a suicide
Note on a night stand
I used to get her to crack smiles
She hates my guts
My guts rotting from the inside
Oozing of hate and black bile
She bears cancer in her breath
This girl like the others
Made me feel complete
But it was a dream in my head
Now I feel obsessed
Not with her but the idea that I was left
I can't lift myself out of bed
There's a hole in my chest
Where my heart would nest
The rotting egg, but fuck therapy
Depression speaks to my music
And lack of energy
And thanks for the cold love
Your idea of concern punched a hole
In my chest and froze lungs
No matter how much death, violent sex
And meds I fed up with it won't close up
You wanna help? Hold up do me a favor
Hold the rest of these pills and put them
On the sink while I throw up
You're never coming back
There's no sense in coming back
I'm gone now, and my blood is running black
Ex ray sky dropped tears when
The sun was cracked
I'm dead inside, you crushed
What was left over, not much intact

I'm in the house crashing from coke
Paranoia got me half naked and choked
Holding the doorknob alone
Till schizophrenia spoke
I told my ex I was gonna blow my head
Off with a shotgun, the shotgun that I hold
With one bullet to load
She was surprisingly distraught over the
Phone at her job, i hung up and convulsed
The cops came later in vests
Detective in a coat
Called me on the phone telling
Me to calm down
I won't be arrested or roped
I'm trying to get clothed
They rushed me, when I came out
Pistols to my face pressed up against my nose
Chest in the dirt
Knees in my back out in the cold
Go to the hospital cuffed
Nurses came escorted with orderlies and
Gloves and lifted me up
I swung, spit the juice at
His mug, I bit, kicked, and punched
I felt the bugs crawling from the needle
That plunged into my leg muscle
And went numb
Dropped like my father when he was drunk
When I was young
And flashbacks struck when I woke up
Holding an IV, rigged the pole
Clutched as I crutched
I was snuffed, stuffed, drugged, strung out
Black blood drying on the forearms that run
Stains on the ceiling
Roommate twitching from ticks in his tongue
Remembering about the neighbor who tried
To poison his lunch i haven't seen the sun
They asked me where the burn marks are from
The body whited the sheets they tied me to
Hospital gown, lime with blue
My face is blank as the panel
Of doctors I was lying to
Trying to ignore the shadows that still
Continue to climb the room
Climate's cooled the room cyclothymic womb
Tremors seismic you're never coming back
There's no sense in coming back
I'm gone now, and my blood is running black
Ex ray sky dropped tears when
The sun was cracked
I'm dead inside, you crushed
What was left over, not much intact