JAY-Z - Adnis lyrics

Uh, letter to my dad that I never wrote
Speeches I prepared that I never spoke
Words on a paper that I never read
Proses never penned, they stayed in my head
Jotted on dotted lines, "I'ma fight you
Nigga"
From stories that I heard, I'm just like you
Nigga
Must've been some pain in your past, too
Must've been a karma that was past due
Must it be the energy that passed through
Must've been a pastor, many snafus
Started a good man, you married my mama
I was in her belly, you hurried that Summer
She had two kids from a previous mister
One family, I don't believe in half-sisters
Never treated my brother like a step, Pop
Remembered the many lessons when
We stepped out

What was you preparing us for?

Did you see the runt as the front-runner
Leader of the pack
You see that in your youngins
What ancestors did you summon to the summit
To give me what I needed
What you need to take from 'em
The tsunamis that I swum in to become in
Had the cable with the anchor for
The places that I sunk in
Unc in a better place
But you couldn't function
Shot junk in your arms
More than your veins was punctured
I punted on feelings
'cause you said you was coming
You couldn't kick the habit
I wish you said something
You can't avenge these many sins
With your own hands
You wanna make God laugh
Just tell him your plans
Who would've thought I'd be the
Dad I never had be the husband I've become
Usually nothing come from that
I forgive you as I live through
The beautiful present of the past
I'm just thankful that I get
All these gifts to unwrap

What was you preparing us for?