Jedi Mind Tricks - Black Winter Day lyrics

Torn apart now
I cannot have this combination
And fusion of your elixir torn apart now
These are the choices we've made
Do I swallow or walk away?

Most of my adult life I've
Been torn into two if you love me
Then I love you and this song is for you
It's tight hard when you know that you sick
And your shorty seeing you
As an emotional wreck the closer I get
It's like the farther I feel
And my heart has turned into
This heavy armor and steel
It's hard to be real
Hard to listen to the dumb shit
And I take a lot of pills cause it numbs shit
I wish I had another path to follow
Wish that I could be a man
And learn to pass the bottle
A graphic novel, my future a box or an urn
Having dreams about death
But I'm not that concerned
And I'm diseased
Through the seasons they turn
Watching leaves from the trees turn
Diseased and they burn i'm eager to learn
But I'm holding my breath
And every day alive is just
Another closer to death


Yeah, I've been alive longer than
I expected to be and took care of everything
That's expected of me
Took care of my girl and my mother
I told her that I'm always
Here and I love her
I handle shit differently cause
I'm grown now and the truth is that I'd
Rather be alone now
I'd rather not have to deal with the day
And I hate when people ask
Me how I'm feeling today
My brother Rasul, we had a beef and grudge
But we grew up together, cousin
So it's peace and love
I wish y'all the best
I wish y'all the shine
I wish I didn't wanna off
My thoughts with a nine
I'm thoughtful and kind, but I'm evil alas
But everything I love has turned
To a tedious task i feel that life a waiting
Game for people to pass
But nobody ever want you to
See through the mask

I don't wanna be a burden to y'all
I just wanna know exactly what
My purpose is for
I feel like nothing I do is ever right
And that I'm acting a fool another night
And I admit, I don't take care of myself
So I do a lot of
Thinking and preparing myself
'Cause the fact is my father died
Young and I might too
And it ain't any way to tell what I might do
I don't wanna leave my mother behind
I don't want for her to cry
Because the struggle is mine
I don't want for her to grind no more
I don't want for her to
Work a 9-to-5 no more
I ain't have to work a fucking 9-to-5 before
So I'm trying to get this
Money to provide for y'all
And if the shit ain't work
Out and I'm suddenly gone
Just remember that the motherfucking
Love isn't gone pazman