Jedi Mind Tricks, Shara Nova - Razorblade Salvation lyrics

I know all the times were hard
I know that you've been feeling down
If you only knew how I'm feeling for you
If I could take your pain
I wish that I could wash it all away
If you only knew how I'm feeling

Mommy, I'm sorry if my first
Letter made you cry to be honest with you
I don't think that I want to die
Sometimes I feel like that I'm
Cancerous in other's lives
That's probably why I drink at night
And sleep 'til four or five
It's kind of hard walking through
Life with my distorted eyes
When I was younger
I was stupid and I thought I'd thrive
I thought a lot about everything
I said in the letter
And questioned whether or not if I was dead


You'd be better
You think my shorty would be happy
If I never met her?
It's too late now, mommy
I could never forget her
Could never forget how she taught me to love
Cause my father and my
Grandmother is always above
It's glory above
You know that daddy taught me to thug
And every time we was with nanny
She'd bombard me with hugs
Damn, I miss her, mommy
And it's hard to believe
That I'm grown and I don't understand it
Why did they leave?

It's better to die and sleep
Than never waking sleep
Than linger on and dare to live
When the soul's life is gone

You've been running around for so long
You've been hurting yourself too much
You keep messing around with darkness
You're the one who's losing
You've been running around for so long
You've been hurting yourself too much
You keep messing around with darkness
You're the one who's losing

Mommy, I think that I'mma try
To stick around a while
I got a niece, and my nephews
They need me around a while
I think they need me cause
They hitting that age
And they ain't trying to speak to
Lenny cause they spitting they rage
Yeah, and mommy, speaking to Lenny
I think my brother need me and we Italian
So you know my mother love to feed me
And it's the little things you do for
Me that make it worth it
Like when I play a joint that we
Did and you say it's perfect
And when Jake got knocked
You knew that I was hurt
You told me put all of my heart in the song
And it worked
I promised him that I'd be there
When he got out the bing
You ain't raise me to be a liar, ma
That's not my thing
I told him that I'd hold him down
The whole time that he gone
They kept him locked inside a
Cage, but that's cool, cause he's strong
So mommy
Keep that first letter I wrote you on the low
I think I wanna stay alive and
See if I can grow

You've been running around for so long
You've been hurting yourself too much
You keep messing around with darkness
You're the one who's losing
You've been running around for so long
You've been hurting yourself too much
You keep messing around with darkness
You're the one who's losing

"You have power and money
But you are mortal
You know you cannot escape death
But immortality can be obtained
The legend is always the same
If others have succeeded in conquering death
Why must we accept it?
I know where the immortals live
And how to obtain their secret
We too must become wise men
The elements of chemistry are many
But finite
So are the techniques of enlightenment"

I know all the times were hard
I know that you've been feeling down
If you only knew how I'm feeling for you
If I could take your pain
I wish that I could wash it all away
If you only knew how I'm feeling