Jehst - Tears in Rain lyrics

Let me pour out my bleeding heart
It was all fucked up from the start
I was just try'na play my part
And they say it ain't the winning that counts
It's the taking part
But when you lose maintainings hard
And if you choose to complain they laugh
At your pain so you pick up the pad
Put the needle to the vein
It's the same old same
I've seen it all before
And I'm sure that I'll see it again
Strange Days when people act in strange ways
And end up locked in strangeways
For the way they behave
The sky is always a shade of grey
That's why I'm try'na make my pay
And escape the UK
It's a love hate relationship
No doubt - do I wanna stay?
Nah, I wanna break out
Cause the rain clouds overhead
Got me feelin dread
Got me feelin like I'm already dead
Nothing left to lose if it was left to you
Would you ever try to step in my shoes
And finish my work if I was under the dirt
There's only so many bridges
That's another that's burnt
Another confirmed my fears
I've been feelin the hurt for years
Dealin' with my people and my peers
And the cries for help fallin on deaf ears
I guess everything must end here
And it must end now
Shut, shot cause' I'm closin down
I'm broken down
I hope that there's no one around to see my

Tears in rain, dealing with the years of pain
I'm still here tryin' to maintain
Still here tryin' to maintain
It's the same old same yo
It's always the same it don't change
Tears in rain, dealing with the years of pain
I'm still here tryin' to maintain
Still here tryin' to play the game
Still rollin the dice
Gambling not knowing the price
And if there really is a God
I must owe him my life
If God exists then I owe my life

Enemy or friend? Friend or enemy?
I touch tracks tenderly with
A suicidal tendency
And when I'm gone nobody can fill the vacancy
They'll never say I was
A victim of complacency
In the place to be seen
I was home banging beats
Baggin trees try'na make ends meet
The only way I know how, for now
I couldn't stay at my mum's I
Moved out of the house
I'm too proud, crafting to earn a pound
And it's my own little niche
That I'm carving now
Don't ask about the ups and downs
Can't you see that I'm still try'na
Turn my frown upside down
I cry the tears of a clown tears in the rain
I'm like a dusty old photo in a rusty frame
An old relative you can't remember the name
And if it wasn't for me
Things just wouldn't be the same

Tears in rain, dealing with the years of pain
I'm still here tryin' to maintain
Still here tryin' to maintain
It's the same old same yo
It's always the same it don't change
Tears in rain, dealing with the years of pain
I'm still here tryin' to maintain
Still here tryin' to play the game
Still rollin the dice
Gambling not knowing the price
And if there really is a God
I must owe him my life
If God exists then I owe my life