Jesse - Another Thought lyrics

The days are going from hot to cold
Back and forth
I always wonder if that means something
I'm not sure
I guess I'm not really sure of anything
I think I'm curious
Words don't mean anything anymore
(Yo, that's right)

What is honesty if truth isn't behind it?
I've been telling people how I see
But I truly think they're blinded
And I try to find it in
Them but then I get reminded
That nothing lasts forever, that is timeless
Been called a "spineless
Faggot piece of shit"
Been called "the kindest kid" behind it all
I find myself against the law with
Signs and I rewind this shit
Remember every syllable I fluctuate
Wanna believe in me now? Too
Bad you're fucking late love turned to hate
Now, so I create whatever the voice in
My brain is asking me to make
Admit that I have changed
Admit that you were right
And admitting is the first
Step towards suicide
If I end it all right now in an instant
Would anybody feel any different?
I haven't made the mark I want to leave
No, I never made a difference
And what if I forget about
Asking God for forgiveness?

If the gates need a key to
Be opened up in heaven
But the devil leaves his unlocked
With his fingers in direction
Pointed at you in your face
With mirrored eyes showing reflection
Of yourself and all the
Hell in your complexion
Then how would we protect him? (yeah)
Six drugs and rock and roll
Is all I wanna know but, I can't control the
Metronome inside my soul
The monster looking through my window
Got the best of me life is always testing me
This will be the death of me

I've used every letter that I've ever
Learnt to make these words but, suddenly
I don't know how to make them work
Numbers passing through the insides
Of my eyelids and every shape is stuck in
The center of my iris
The edges stabbing me where my heart belongs
I feel loved but does that have to
Mean that my heart is strong?
The melody behind me has to speak for it'self
Because without it I think I might need help
Have you ever felt like you've been
Wide awake for years and days?
I have but today I woke up weird and strange
It's the weirdest thing
Wish I could explain more in-depthly
But how can I explain myself if
I have never met me?
Files and endless metal cabinets
With documented papers that
I can pull out like a rabbit
And the black and fabric cap
From some magic having faggot
But the words are strangling
Me like a fastened, straightened jacket
I'm speechless