JEVI - Beautiful Killer (Original Full Demo Version) lyrics

I painted my nails in blue
To forget your green
To free myself from this dream
Is this story leading me to anywhere?

I can remember the cold April morning
When we first start talking about our lives
We met the light in the darkness
I will do anything to be by your side
But we both know that always is hard to try
But, I really want to, be with you

I don't know how to call you
I don't really know what is your name
Beautiful killer
Because you're not capable to blame

Beautiful killer in my heart
I see red blood in your eyes
You broke my hеart
Beautiful killer in disguise



Do you rеmember your first love?
Say my name, you promised and you did
And I remember all the shit that you said
Do you remember that reason?
The moment you realized you changed your mind
Because I do, yeah, I do
And do you remember that August night?
"I could't be with anybody else"
"Cause nobody makes me feel what you do"
You said that in the river holding my hand
And I thought I can't breathe
This is all that I dreamt
You and I in the night, two of us
And one heart
Next to the dock, next to the water
Perfect paradise
I want to live in this picture forever
And I thought you feel love
But it wasn't the time
And what if I kiss you? And
You turned off my light
And yes, it could be, or maybe not, well
Right
But, I'll try to win this fight till die

I don't know how to call you
I don't really know what's your name
Beautiful killer
Because you're not capable to blame

Beautiful killer in my heart
I see red blood in your eyes
You broke my heart
Beautiful killer in disguise

Is hard for me, for the both of us
But, I'm still dreaming with you by my side
And I won't give up, you are my man
The fate is written over the shining space
And I can't believe it
In a life where you're not here
No, I don't wanna think about it
You made me cry, I made you cry
Who's really now the killer in disguise?
When you called me that night of July
Everything turn to black
Unconditionally I'm here to help you
Overcome your fears

And now I'm in a hospital bed
With a broken leg again
And you have one thing to say:
"I think I'm gonna walk away"
And I cried and cried and cried
'Cause you're the only one I love, hmm
I pray to the same one who has your name
I love you like no one ever, just stay
You have problems, I know, me too
I have depression, probably you too
And anxiety and we wanna die
But let me be your ray of light
I understand everything what happens to you
And we have talked about this several times
I'm not selfish
I try to give you the best of me
And maybe in a few years
We'll love each other and we'll be free
Yeah, we'll be free (We'll be free) yeah

Is the New Year's Day, fuck Christmas forever
This won't be the same, never and ever
And you don't wanna talk with anybody
And for the first time I don't feel my body
You left me there, with no life
You left me dead
And you made sure that I didn't breathe
Then you run away to be free
And you say I'm obesessed, well I am
All my friends are saying that I must forget
But how could I? If you are my everything
If I walk away, I could never think
On anyone else, or my family, or my friends
'Cause, I'm dead, and the dead never speak
So now I'm here, writing this song
With a thousand-broken-pieces heart

Now I know how to call you
You're name is stuck everyday in my head
Beautiful killer
I'm praying to Jesus now for you to stay

Beautiful killer in my heart
I see true hope in your eyes
You stole my heart
Beautiful killer till we die

And now I'm here
I'm trying to talking to you
But, you're always busy, I know what you do
Give me "good morning", and "goodnight" too
I'll write with my guitar
Some rhythm and blues
And I just want to beg for one more chance
Open your heart, and you won't regret
You said you were not superficial
So I have to ask more:
Why are you letting go everything
You were looking for?

(You said no, you said no, you said no
You said no) but, I'm still open to you
(You said no, you said no, you said no
You said no) beautiful killer, don't you?
(You said no, you said no, you said no
You said no) like you did in July
(You said no, you said no, you said no
You said no) i hope you change your mind