Jewel - Goodbye Alice In Wonderland lyrics

It's four in the afternoon
I'm on a flight leaving LA
Trying to think about my life
My youth, scattered along the highway
Hotel rooms and headlights
I've made a living with a song
Guitar as my companion
Wanting desperately to belong

Fame is filled with spoiled children
And we grow fat on fantasy
I guess that's why I'm leaving
I crave reality

So goodbye Alice in Wonderland
Goodbye yellow brick road
There is a difference between
Dreaming and pretending
I did not find paradise
It was only a reflection of
My lonely mind wanting
What's been missing in my life

I'm embarrassed to say the rest
Is rock and roll cliché
I hit the bottom when I reached the top
But, I never knew it was you
Who was breaking my heart
I thought you had to love me
But, you did not
Yes, a heart can hallucinate
If it's completely starved for love
It can even turn monsters
Into angels from above

You forged my love just like a weapon
And you turned it against me like a knife
You broke my last heartstring
You opened up my eyes

So goodbye Alice in Wonderland
Goodbye yellow brick road
There is a difference between
Dreaming and pretending
That was not love in your eyes
It was only a reflection of
My lonely mind searching
What's missing in my life

Growing up is not an absence of dreaming
It's being able to understand the difference
Between the ones you can hold
And the ones that you've been sold
And dreaming is a good thing 'cause
It brings new things to life
But pretending is an ending
That perpetuates a lie
Forgetting what you are seeing to
What you've been told

Oh, truth is stranger than fiction
This is my chance to get it right
And life is much better without
All of those pretty lies, oh

So Goodbye Alice in Wonderland
And you can keep your yellow brick road
There is a difference between
Dreaming and pretending
These are not tears in my eyes
They are only a reflection of
My lonely mind finding

They are only a reflection of
My lonely mind finding
I found what's missing in my life