Jewel - His Pleasure is My Pain lyrics

A man stands in the doorway
Like a small child, angry fists
She lies in her bed, her
Head buried in her pillow
She stares at the moon he speaks to her
All the words she's heard
Too many times before
And pretty soon she just lets
His voice fade away
She thinks this was a gradual steel
Frost that started with cold feet
And ended with numb hearts
It was once satisfying sex
But now no longer is
It was once filled with all the possibilities
Of new China or old stone
But now it's exaggerated and water-logged
No longer what these hands had intended and
Still I cry in my sleep

He always said I was too sensitive
But, I say
Least I never meant to make him cry
Least I never meant to make him hurt that way
No, I never meant to make him cry
I never meant to make him hurt that way
Yes it's true, I'm too sensitive but
He takes pleasure in my pain
Yes it's true, I'm too sensitive but
He takes pleasure in my pain

And the unheard hours they fly by
She goes to the window
Puts on a nightgown and brushes her hair
He's already asleep by the time she
Goes to lay back down
She thinks, my God, what am I doing here

My bones have grown tired of his hunger
Of his grey eyes
And I feel that if I were to
Stay one more night here I'd die
Or explode, or worse yet, just fade away
And there've been days so dark
When I felt like August
And that I soon too would
Have to turn to Fall

He always said I was too sensitive
If I dared to care so much
The world could kill me that way
I wonder if he's only half alive or if
He simply has always lacked such subtlety
But, I say
At least I ever meant to make him cry
At least I never meant to
Make him hurt this way
No, I never meant to make him cry
I never meant to make him hurt this way
Yes it's true, I'm too sensitive but
He takes pleasure from my pain

She gets out of bed and looks
At her feet as though
They were the wings for her freedom
She gets up and goes to the drawer
It's a moment in which anything can happen
As she gets out some clothing
Puts them in a bag
And leaves him sleeping while she
Heads for the door

Gone gone