Joell Ortiz - Anxiety lyrics

Okay, oh no, first I can't catch a breath
Feel the moisture as I begin to sweat (Damn)
I start feelin' dizzy like my balance left
(Whoa) and now my heart's beatin' like
It's out my chest (No)
It's happenin' again, it's happenin' again
But, you can't tell nobody
They gon' think you crazy
It's happenin' again, it's happenin' again
Just let it pass, boy, you'll be good, baby

Wakin' up's a struggle
I used to want to hustle
I used to want the whole world
To know that I existed, now I cuddle
In the bed with myself
Hopin' the phone don't ring
Hopin' a text don't come through
Or email don't bling i feel funny
Shouldn't I be happy? I get money
Instead, I put on all new
Clothes and feel crummy
But, I'm showin' up for work like I'm a-okay
Anxiety? Who, me? No way, José
I hide behind a smile while
My mind is runnin' wild
Nervous for no reason
Heart beatin' like a mile a minute
Where's the nearest bathroom? I'm in it
Splash some water on my face, wipe it dry
Let's get it that's my life in a nutshell
Feel like I'm goin' nuts, well
Let's keep it on the low
Can't let 'em know that you ain't upscale
I shouldn't even carry real ID
Forgot what it feels like to
Really feel like me

Okay, oh no, first I can't catch a breath
Feel the moisture as I begin to sweat (Damn)
I start feelin' dizzy like my balance left
(Whoa) and now my heart's beatin' like
It's out my chest (No)
It's happenin' again, it's happenin' again
But, you can't tell nobody
They gon' think you crazy
It's happenin' again, it's happenin' again
Just let it pass, boy, you'll be good, baby

Sometimes I hear a song and wanna cry
It brings me to before I was this
Guy and puts water in my eyes
I keep my faith strong
If there's a Lord up in the sky
I pray that I feel happy one
More time before I die
I get glimpses, then it's gone in an instance
Joy's in front of me and then
It's off in the distance
No one in my phone book
I could call for assistance
'Cause they won't understand what
I be goin' through, what is this?
Why won't it go away? Never thought
I would know a day
That the ship captain started
Actin' like a stowaway
I'm thinkin' 'bout a meetin'
Tomorrow with sweaty palms, now
Like, if I catch a panic attack
How can I calm down?
Nervous that I might feel nervous
What a vicious cycle
I see myself fadin' away without the Vitiligo
I hit the gym and try to get off some steam
But, I get anxiety just tryna pick a machine
Some pictures make me smile 'cause
My figure is lean
And then the very next thought is
"I can't get in them jeans"
Wish that I could go to sleep
Wake up and life is sweet but truth is
I fight this beast in the middle of dreams

Okay, oh no, first I can't catch a breath
Feel the moisture as I begin to sweat (Damn)
I start feelin' dizzy like my balance left
(Whoa) and now my heart's beatin' like
It's out my chest (No)
It's happenin' again, it's happenin' again
But, you can't tell nobody
They gon' think you crazy
It's happenin' again, it's happenin' again
Just let it pass, boy, you'll be good, baby