Joell Ortiz - Make It Without You lyrics

Rest in peace Grandma i'll always love you
Your grandson joell Ortiz

Where you going? Why'd you leave me?
My heart is broken eyes is teary
My head is aching chest is wheezing
I feel so empty you left's the reason
I need air, something fresh to breathe in
Forgot my jacket, my neck is freezing
Man I'm so tired, ain't slept this weekend
The fans together, doing separate grieving
Dear Lord I'm upset this evening
My stomach rebels, won't accept the eating
"Sorry Joell" on every text I'm reading
They trying to help
But it ain't stress relieving
You the best at the lesson teaching
And I let you down before so I guess we even
You took my Grandmoms may she
Rest in peace and crying's all I can do
But I know she up there wit you so

I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight, I’m gonna find a way
To make it without you
I’m gonna hold on to the times that we had
Tonight, I’m gonna find a way
To make it without you

I pour a little out
Then commence the drinking
My eyes get blurry, when I get to thinking
Bout that long ride in that Limo Lincoln
Through the cemetery, and your casket sinking
You gone but it still ain't sink in
I walk past your room and
I still just peek in hoping you reading or
Hoping you sleeping or hoping you eating or
Hoping you breathing or
Just hoping, it's sad I gotta hope
Best part of my birthday, Grandma envelope
Best part of my punishment
Grandma would say no
He coming out with me Michelle
Go and grab his coat
She cried when I signed to Aftermath
That was dope
And hung every magazine that ever had a quote
I quit a while ago but I
Think I'll have a smoke
Crying's all I can do
But I know she up there wit you so

My moms is mourning tried my best to try to
Keep her calm this morning
But her moms is gone and
That's all she had besides me and my sons
Her dad was 39 when he passed, he died young
Trying to make it through without Grams
I really can't believe I'm writing
This right now damn
My youngest son's sad but
He don't really understand
My oldest one cried on the phone
My voice held his hands
I'm sorry I couldn't see with all the tears
It's hard to let go someone you
Been with all these years
Grandmom I hold up that a
Wall for you I swear
Aight freak freak I can't do
This shit no more
We gotta stop this shit now