JT Music - Shadow of Myself lyrics

This sickness I'm afflicted with has
Got my brain decaying
Addicted to it's wickedness
This dangerous game I'm playing
I know my God has damned me
My fate remains unmolded
Guess it runs in the family
My sense of self corroded
Rage and hatred, untethered
Heads and appendages severed
I can't be saved by confession
Endure this torture forever
This aimless anger will fester and
Pain will make me remember
I'm on the edge of life and
Death and I ain't gettin' better
Lungs filled up with sweat and mud
Unclean, diseased, body wet with blood
When it comes to carnage, I can't get enough
Ever since mom and dad force fed me some

Way past saving, can't be helped
Just a shadow of myself
Feel your darkness cascade over me
(Cast it over me) make me evil, feed me Hell
I'm a shadow of myself!
Swallow my soul, take control of me
(Takin' over me)

Hold your holy Bibles tight
You're sinking in this swamp
There's no key to your survival
That's a door that's locked
Dissected head to toe, you'll be opened up
The only friend you'll get to
Know is a loaded gun
My blackened blood is boilin'
I feel my fear no more
The scent of dead flesh spoilin'
Have I become a corpse?
Spiders climb up my spine
Feel their venom in my veins
This torment is divine, the reaper
I'll embrace
When I'm made a God, I will take a bow
Evil forged a bond, she won't break her vows
Now, you know the price, gotta pay it now
If you have a life, time to lay it down
Heed not the voice of reason
It only tells you lies
Obey your sins and demons then
See through evil's eyes

Way past saving, can't be helped
Just a shadow of myself
Feel your darkness cascade over me
(Cast it over me) make me evil, feed me hell
I'm a shadow of myself!
Swallow my soul, take control of me
(Takin' over me)

Blood is in the air
My tongue can taste the gore
Smell it on my breath
The flavor I've been craving for
What's the matter, what's happenin'?
I've been served up a platter of pathogens
Trapped within a macabre massacre by
A family of sadistic savages
Ain't seen a chainsaw yet but
I will by the end, i'll bet
I can sense the presence of evil
Settled deep in this residence
I've already been through shit
And still haven't seen how bad it gets
Crashin' their party, bash in their heads
Pick up a weapon and splatter the rest
This violence has me laughin'
After makin' a massive mess
I guess, I'm past the point of saving
I'd rather end up dead!
Give in to your temptation
Transcend mortality
Why let yourself be bound by mortal morality!

Way past saving, can't be helped
Just a shadow of myself
Feel your darkness cascade over me
(Cast it over me) make me evil, feed me hell
I'm a shadow of myself!
Swallow my soul, take control of me
(Takin' over me)

Take control of me, evil molded me